manawa
says
soy consado. Pero queiro praticar alga Super Mario Brothers musica mas.
manawa
says
y me gusta praticar mi castillano tambien
SpiritEssence
says
I have no idea what you said. 
manawa
says
I'm tired, but I want to practice SMB music more - and I like to practice my spanish, too. 
SpiritEssence
says
ok. I learned French in hs and college.. a lot of good that did me
manawa
says
you used it in your blog today! cest le vie!
manawa
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LOL!
SpiritEssence
says
lol... so I did
SpiritEssence
says
don't remember a whole lot more than that.
SpiritEssence
says
heeheehee
manawa
says
french is some kind of animal
manawa
shares
here ya go you might find this interesting
SpiritEssence
says
have you read Power Vs Consciousness? I have heard of it but not yet read it..
SpiritEssence
says
sorry - Power vs Force
manawa
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Yeah, that's what that's from. It's amazing to say the least. A great grounding point IMHO
manawa
says
and The Eye of The I
manawa
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Or maybe its I of the Eye, I forget and not looking it up right now
SpiritEssence
says
so what is your level? do you know?
manawa
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what i'd say is the more i care, the lower i am. pride is the hardest level to get "over" it's the strongest "force"
SpiritEssence
says
I can believe that.
SpiritEssence
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about pride..
SpiritEssence
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but I don't believe you are "below the level of critical integrity"!
manawa
says
it's right there on the map. to me, though, i want to focus more on vector and velocity rather than location. if that makes sense. . .
manawa
says
some "quantum physics" mumbo-jumbo, but all relevant to me. . . or my mind. . . something like that.
manawa
says
sorry, i'm a little tired
SpiritEssence
says
wow - this is fascinating.
SpiritEssence
says
do you need to go to sleep?
manawa
says
nah
manawa
says
i think plurk just goofed on me. . .
SpiritEssence
says
I don't know a lot about quantum physics, but find it quite intriquing
SpiritEssence
says
So what is your take on what will happen in 2012?
manawa
says
i figure that as you get older, 'specially someone like you, you appreciate the greater importance of direction that position
manawa
says
oh, the 2012 thing. it is something. i figure its been happening our whole life, and will continue through this current life.
manawa
says
I turn 33 on dec 20, 2012
SpiritEssence
says
hmmm.. that's interesting..
SpiritEssence
says
I think that the changes are already happening, and we have an opportunity to change how we view ourselves and the world
manawa
says
a guy i used to work for HATED the word "potential". he was a brilliant baseball pitcher from a very young age - but it never went anywhere
manawa
says
for him
SpiritEssence
says
why do you think that happened?
manawa
says
i guess what i mean is that opportunities are just talk until one takes advantage, then its not opportunity any more
manawa
says
then it's "getting stuff done" which i greatly prefer
SpiritEssence
says
well, possibly we make our opportunities
manawa
says
a gagillion new-agers and soforth talk and talk and theorize and speculate and all this tripe - i'm just kicking ass as far as i can tell
manawa
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don't get me wrong, i love to talk and think
manawa
says
i don't think one can tell the importance of 2012 from this perspective. (i do think it is "relevant" btw) but in the grand cosmic scheme
manawa
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of things - i'm not worried about what year it is - call me old fashioned! lol!
manawa
says
but maybe i'm one of the indigo children - if i was interested in labeling myself like that, which i'm not
SpiritEssence
says
It is just the end point / beginning point of a new era - However we are already experiencing it NOW.
SpiritEssence
says
and for me the push is to be the best person I can possibly be
SpiritEssence
says
and to somehow be of service to people in some way
manawa
says
NOW is the moment of power - whatever year it is. i have a lot of gratitude for the generations of men and women before me who kept certain
manawa
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knowledge alive for so long. i look at those people and know that they didn't care what years it was, they just wanted to do their best
manawa
says
like you said
manawa
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yeah, exactly what you are saying - that's what i think is important
SpiritEssence
says
yes
SpiritEssence
says
that is the message I think, and a lot of people don't get that
manawa
says
right. i think i understand way more about the 2012 thing that 95% of the people talking about it, but 99% of those people put it in far too
manawa
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great importance in their lives
SpiritEssence
says
yes. as if today was not important...
manawa
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yeah. they all live in lala land. and that's fine. i can only speak my truth when i get the chance -bhudda taught to not get attached to
manawa
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results
SpiritEssence
says
yeah. I strive for that, but not easy to accomplish alwys
manawa
says
not at all easy-
manawa
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99.9% of us are here as humans to learn it - if we already were experts, we wouldn't be here
manawa
says
that's pretty much my take
SpiritEssence
says
yep.
SpiritEssence
says
i was just thinking about what my "purpose" is... and whether I am accomplishing it or not
manawa
says
i picked this handle, manawa - to remind myself "now is the moment of power" right? no one else knows what it means
manawa
says
when were you thinking about that?
SpiritEssence
says
just now
SpiritEssence
says
well, often, but just now as I typed it
SpiritEssence
says
it kind of ties in with what we were talking about
SpiritEssence
says
i like your handle - thank you for sharing the meaning with me.
manawa
says
that's a whole deeper conversation, eh? and that's saying something considering what we're already talking about. any initial feelings?
manawa
says
answers?
SpiritEssence
says
well, i know it has something to do with how I can serve people
manawa
says
is that your purpose or is that what you are doing?
manawa
says
SpiritEssence
says
I have done many things in my life - counseling, computer programming, teaching, art, etc.
SpiritEssence
says
and I know that what I do is only part of it.
manawa
says
i'm not playing dumb - i know what you're talking about. we can talk about i more if you want
SpiritEssence
says
perhaps a bigger part is who I AM and who I am becoming
manawa
says
yeah, there's another bad habit - putting too much importance on what we do as who we are
SpiritEssence
says
however, what I do also has to be a part of who I am, doesn't it?
manawa
says
i honestly do not know. it makes sense, but i do not know.
manawa
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"you will know them by their works"
SpiritEssence
says
I know... I had a teacher once who always asked "How are you being?" instead of "How are you doing?"
SpiritEssence
says
it was to make that very point
manawa
says
you see my profile pic?
SpiritEssence
says
yes
SpiritEssence
says
what are the 4 colored bits at the bottom?
manawa
says
The four colored feathers represent the four cardinal directions, which represent our four main bodies.
manawa
says
let me continue for a sec
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says
ok
manawa
says
"you" are in the center, you are not these bodies. and these four bodies are actually 4 aspects of 1 body, but we separate them for this
manawa
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purpose of gaining understanding
manawa
says
i'm going to type a few short points out, just follow
manawa
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the sun rises in the East, noontime the sun is in the South, sets West, and at night the sun is literally in the North
manawa
says
East is our spirit body, where the sun rises - as each new day is unique, spirit is the uniqueness. your spirit is simply the thing that you
manawa
says
are different from everything else, just like each new day. People who have strong spirits can be out-of-balance and behave as contraries
manawa
says
The sun is strongest in the south, this is our emotion body. Our emotions make us want to engage things or avoid things.
manawa
says
The sun sets in the west. this is our physical body. it is a time for introspection, also nurturing, and the Fall season, when we are
manawa
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preparing for the winter. someone out-of-balance to this direction might be afraid to try new things (notice east and west are across from
manawa
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eachother)
manawa
says
The North is the mind, and the home of the workers, the hunters and gatherers.
manawa
says
I could go on and on, just about these four. I should have mentioned that these four are also the four seasons.
manawa
says
So by studying the cycle of the sun, and the cycle of the seasons, we can gain great understanding about our own Selves - these 4 bodies.
manawa
says
We can learn where we feel comfortable, where we might align ourself too strongly with one direction, or how we might use our mind in
SpiritEssence
says
very interesting. I am thinking/wondering if it equally applies to 4 stages of life?
manawa
says
the role where our emotions belong- or we might use our body in the role where our spirit belongs, etc.
manawa
says
Well, it's kindof funny b/c different cultures have come up with variations on this stuff. Are you familiar, for instance with the Vedanta
manawa
says
Sutras? No, I'm thinking of the Bhagavad Gita
manawa
says
No, its the sutras, anyways, those books had every aspect of society, and individual roles, and phases of life all mapped down to an exact
manawa
says
science - at least to the cultures who used them heavily,
manawa
says
So there are always more than one way to skin a cat - these are all mental constructs. So they are good for the mind's uses, but not
SpiritEssence
says
I don't know it well at all
manawa
says
neccessarily important for our other aspects.
SpiritEssence
says
my mind has always been very strong. What I am learning to do is to use my heart / intuition more
manawa
says
What i'm laying out here is who we are - and how it is fundamentally different from anything our mind can understand.
SpiritEssence
says
you are very smart, you know? )
manawa
says
So my opinion is that you are VERY MUCH on the right track to be using your heart to figure out if you are fulfilling your purpose.
manawa
says
Your mind is incapable of getting a good answer to that. Our society has a bad pattern of over-emphasizing the mind
manawa
says
This kind of thing is NOT what the mind is designed for. I really like my mind - it is a great tool. But my Self has taken to learn what it
SpiritEssence
says
tell me about it...
manawa
says
is designed for, and to not try to. . . hit a nail with a screw-driver, so-to-speak.
SpiritEssence
says
gotta show you something I have been working on - a new logo
manawa
says
OOOOOO!
SpiritEssence
says
sorry - didn't want to interrupt what you were saying.. it's just that it is in line with what we just said
SpiritEssence
shares
manawa
says
Ok. Gotcha. No biggie. I think I got across what i was trying to. What do you think?
manawa
says
Does what I'm saying resonate with your heart?
SpiritEssence
shares
the 2 images of the heart and the spiral keep appearing everywhere - and they seem important to me.
SpiritEssence
says
oh yeah - big time
manawa
says
www.google.com/search?q=... see if that link works for you
SpiritEssence
says
lol. I was just going to say i need to read it again to understand it
SpiritEssence
says
but that is my mind talking.
SpiritEssence
says
the cho ku rei?
SpiritEssence
says
I know it - it is a reiki symbol
manawa
says
yeah
SpiritEssence
says
yes, it is a spiral...
manawa
says
those symbols are for are hearts and inuition
SpiritEssence
says
spirals are everywhere - even in sacred geometry
SpiritEssence
says
yes, and activation of power
SpiritEssence
says
to me it means "go deep"
SpiritEssence
says
and that is the only way to connect to spirit
manawa
says
Oh Yeah! See in the day and year the sun travels in that circle - but in the non-linear way it "really" works, it is a spiral. it goes -
manawa
says
Spirit, Body, Emotion, Mind. One thing that is so important about the East, Spirit, New Day, is THANKFULNESS
manawa
says
thankfulness sets the whole thing in motion. you can really go and use that
SpiritEssence
says
yeah
manawa
says
what i have learned, and i'm sure you have at certain levels,is that any time you are "stuck," you can simply tap thankfulness and it starts
manawa
says
the thing moving again. this is why it is SO detrimental to over-emphasize the mind -
manawa
says
thankfulness and uniqueness don't necessarily "make sense" but if you can't be thankful, you WILL just get stuck
SpiritEssence
says
I recognize what you are saying. I forget that when I am stuck...
SpiritEssence
says
it's hard to turn it around when you are in that stuck feeling...
manawa
says
If there is one thing that has helped me get so "far" in such a short period of time, that's it. But believe me, it was not always easy or
manawa
says
second-nature
manawa
says
And like, if I get caught up in how "far" i've gotten, i'm dead in the water like anyone else.
SpiritEssence
says
interesting because today I was feeling a bit "stuck" and I wished I could have remembered that
SpiritEssence
says
LOL
SpiritEssence
says
the mind or the ego, plays tricks on us..
manawa
says
Well, I make a specific distinction there - the mind is not the ego. They are different and have different functions
SpiritEssence
says
ok. but the ego uses the mind to keep us from being in the now
manawa
says
The ego, my best explanation, is that when we are born, we are completely helpless. But we cry and we get fed or held (which we need).
manawa
says
The ego is strictly a survival mechanism. It *gradually* pieces together that we should cry when we need something, etc.As we get a little
manawa
says
older, we also need attention and interaction.The ego pieces together using our environment (particularly the people around us) how to get
manawa
says
what we need. Our society in general is overly mind-based, but many individuals actually are not at all
manawa
says
they like to think they are, and "mimic" mind-based behavior, b/c that's how the ego thinks we get what we need in this society.
manawa
says
The ego process, to me, is perfectly natural. But for a healthy human, we should start to grow out of it during puberty
manawa
says
And the adults should be setting the example for the adolescents in this regard.
manawa
says
But instead what we have is almost entirely a bunch of 12-16 years olds with jobs and bills.
manawa
says
Who never really "grow up" or rather, displace their ego with their "selves".
SpiritEssence
says
this is true
manawa
says
I've got an ego, I guess, It doesnt give me any problems anymore. Of course someone who is ego-based can never understand that.
manawa
says
They'd just think I'm full of shit. But what's going on is that the ego desperately seeks survival, nothing else. When it is threatened
manawa
says
it freaks out.When my self tells someone this is possible, their ego freaks out "Don't think you can get rid of me!!!"
SpiritEssence
says
lol.
manawa
says
But egos are actually transient. If you keep feeding your ego, that ego will stick around for a long time sometimes, but it will
manawa
says
always die, and be replaced by another one. However, if one learns how to work with the ego, and stop feeding it - they come and go pretty
manawa
says
easily and naturally.
manawa
says
Nowadays, the only thing my egos tell me is "don't jump out of an airplane" "drive carefully" just mundane stuff like that. we are friends
SpiritEssence
says
you should write a book. I mean it. Or have you already?
manawa
says
manawa
says
That's another interesting conversation. . .*rolls my eyes at myself*
SpiritEssence
says
more people could benefit from hearing your thoughts and what you have learned
manawa
says
Hey, thanks so much. My ego loves to hear stuff like that
SpiritEssence
says
lol.. speaking of egos..
SpiritEssence
says
we always have these marathon plurks.
SpiritEssence
says
thanks -
SpiritEssence
says
it makes my (late) nights so interesting
SpiritEssence
says
I have not met anyone before who thinks like you do at so young an age.
manawa
says
It's funny - we've only known eachother for a short time. I really have only scratched the surface. What I have found is that no one else
manawa
says
cares.
manawa
says
Or something like that.
manawa
says
I mean, not "no one" and surely everyone is different and at different places for different reasons
SpiritEssence
says
i know - it is rare to find others who are tuned in to things like this.
SpiritEssence
says
maybe not no one, but very few...
manawa
says
It's like the taiji thing. I would be a highly competent taiji teacher - but i've tried and gotten no where fast. First, i don't want to
SpiritEssence
says
and maybe they will get there eventually - everyone has their own unique timing
manawa
says
waste anyone's time, including mine, so I try and tell them its not just about someone "teaching" you taiji, you'll only learn it well if
manawa
says
you bring something from within yourself. Second, people look at me and I'm a young guy with round eyes.
manawa
says
Yeah, the "unique timing" thing is what i have most important to me now. I spent quite a while trying to "write books" or "teach taiji"
manawa
says
but what i needed to happen didn't 
. So its exactly what you're saying - i just have to do my best and let the timing work itself out
. So its exactly what you're saying - i just have to do my best and let the timing work itself out
manawa
says
i put the word "money" in parens, and that face appeared. haha!
SpiritEssence
says
just what I was typing - when the timing is right it will happen.
SpiritEssence
says
lol.
manawa
says
Far as I can tell, you are on a great path.If you have more questions, I can be your google to your unknown. I know a lot.
SpiritEssence
says
I *know* that when my timing is right, my art will speak to others and I
manawa
says
I'd rather not keep it to myself, but no one ever asks.
SpiritEssence
says
will be able to share more with others too.
SpiritEssence
says
my google. LOL. I like that
manawa
says
Yes, you are on a great path for your soul. It is working perfectly- but yeah, our the one thing our egos hollar at us loudly about is money
manawa
says
and by "us" i do mean me
SpiritEssence
says
i know that one very well, I'm afraid..
manawa
says
but i've been working with that HEAVILY lately, for the last couple years
SpiritEssence
says
it's one issue that has tripped me up most of my life...
SpiritEssence
says
well, if you figure it out, I'd love to hear about it.
manawa
says
have you seen the movie "Into the Wild?"
SpiritEssence
says
yes, I think...
SpiritEssence
says
trying to remember what it is about..
manawa
says
I've got it figured out, but the ego HATES he answer
SpiritEssence
says
oh? tell me..
manawa
says
It's about a kid who leaves his money and family behind to find himself in the "wilderness"
SpiritEssence
says
OHHHHHH... YESSSSSS
SpiritEssence
says
that was astounding
SpiritEssence
says
i just saw it fairly recently actually.
manawa
says
Well, that was me pretty much. What i have figured is that I spent so much energy saying that I only needed "enough" that that is all i ever
SpiritEssence
says
it was disturbing... I guess to the ego.
manawa
says
have been able to obtain.
SpiritEssence
says
did you come from a wealthy family?
manawa
says
But what I know is that money is a by-product. So you should never go after money. You need to follow your heart and you will be given
SpiritEssence
says
yes... *rolls eyes*
SpiritEssence
says
I have heard that before. LOL
manawa
says
the "money" or more importantly the "resources" to accomplish what you want to do. the more closely you align what you want with what you
manawa
says
need, the easier it will be. It's not about having an "abundance" of money.
SpiritEssence
says
that is exactly what has happened to me in the past, and that is why I am doing what "feels" right to me now, not what I think people
SpiritEssence
says
will buy, at least as far as my art goes
manawa
says
Yeah. Well, what's the difficulty? You know. It's not that you want more money, it's that you want to be able to convince your husband, or
SpiritEssence
says
and yet we do need money to live in this physical world
manawa
says
others that you are "doing alright." But you know, money isn't what's important to YOU.
SpiritEssence
says
so we have to deal with it at some level
manawa
says
And they don't understand that, or their egos have a hard time with it. It's not that you are homeless or hungry.
manawa
says
It's taken A LOT of effort to bring peace into my life and my marriage with all this taken into account.
manawa
says
But you know what?
manawa
says
I did it!
manawa
says
And i'm not looking back.
manawa
says
I disappointed so many people when I set out on this path. But 10 years later I've accomplished EXACTLY what I set out to do.All those
SpiritEssence
says
it's good.
manawa
says
people thought I should have been prestigious and rich. To this day they'd have no idea what I'm talking about here. But do I care?
manawa
says
Not anymore. I used to, believe me.
SpiritEssence
says
manawa
says
But look at my life? Beautiful wife. Beautiful marriage. Beautiful kids. I can build a house.And things looking more promising all the time.
manawa
says
My old teachers and most of my family are caught in tons of self-created bullshit - and they'd look at me on the surface and say i'm an
manawa
says
un-employed lazy asshole who never lived up to his potential. I'd a zillion times rather have spent the last 10 years doing this than in
manawa
says
law school, or med school, or as a network administrator like i was trained to do.
manawa
says
I am not trying to gloat, I hope you don't see it that way. In the vein of this conversation I am just trying to say you are on a
manawa
says
great path and if you stay on it, you will fly someday.And again, I haven't even scratched the surface. There is so much more available.
manawa
says
and I'm the first person who knows how difficult it can be- and the challenges within one's self and others that are involved
SpiritEssence
says
And I want to hear more. My brain (and body) are fading, so let's continue this discussion tomorrow?
SpiritEssence
says
or whenever you have time
SpiritEssence
says
you certainly do seem to know a lot. I never tire of learning, and would only hope that I can share some of my knowledge with you too
SpiritEssence
says
I am so glad we "met" here!
SpiritEssence
says
you still there?
SpiritEssence
says
well, good night - talk to you tomorrow
SpiritEssence
says
manawa
says
sorry, i thought i lost you. don't know what happened. big hug. ttys