they all have to be worked for but i just want them to actually work. not just go back to us well me not being open or anything else.

"not just go back to us well me not being open or anything else." <--- what are you talking about? Explain.

everytime we have one of those talks you hate so much it always ends up being the same thing about me not being open or me not trying

its always me. i've wished so many times that i could be the best for you. i've been trying. i have babe.

Is it true? Or am I just stalking out of my @$$?

yea its true.

So...what am I supposed to do?

idk. it's something about me that i have to figure out.

Okay.

does it seem like everytime i take a step forward i take a step back to you?

I guess, once you get one thing right you forget about the other things. Probably just caught up with other things to remember them all.

well i have to remmeber..i need to babe.

You don't need to be telling me that.

i kno. but i need to say it and i need to do it.

Why say something you already know, and have set as a reminder in your phone...?