Yikes. Are you sure?

Yes. I am sure. He forgot to close an email. This is the second time. I have to leave this time. I'm so hurt. I really love him.

oh man im sorry. ive been there.

oh man im sorry. ive been there.

Thank you for being here.

you need to get out. i know easier said than done, but no one deserves to live like that!

I only have my family to fall back on for a little while til I get myself back together.

no problem. im driving so i might be a little slow but im here

well then, thats what you need to do. thats what family & friends are for

I want him to hurt. that's what I want right now. But I'm WAY above going out on the rebound.

That's mean to do to someone anyway. Rebound stuff that is.

Be careful driving...I'll just talk. I need to talk.

oh man, that sucks IM really sorry to hear that

if he cared little enough to cheat, you rebounding is not going to hurt him anyway

but good for you for being the better person.

Rebounding is just going to make you feel cheap and will achieve nothing

im parked now, all safe. so you live with him right? rental? who owns house?

Maybe I'll take his credit cards and book myself a flight to the Olympics in Beijing. I could do 15K of damage there. That would hurt.

i agree with goaldeebug

I've never, ever cheated on anybody I've dated.

my ex slept with well over fifty women when he was stationed overseas. came home and confessed when he was drinking. ugh.

ooh i wanna go too!

but youd end up in prison for cc fraud. guess well have to stay home.

have you confronted him about it yet?

Nope. Haven't confronted him yet.

We live together in a farm house we just bought.

I'm not the rebounding type.

ihh.

ugh. im sorry it has to be so complicated.

I've just found out and I opened my laptop and ran to y'all. I don't really have many friends right now. I travel too much.

you do have friends, just not local ones.

No friends here in south carolina really that I could talk to. I'm going to call my best friend in Boston in a bit.

I'm physically ill right now. I just want to hit him.

you need to formulate a plan before you confront him.

I know. help me with that plan.

I was thinking that we could try the break up thing yet live together til I find a place to rent somewhere. i don't even know where to go.

I mean This is home base.

i know. ((hugs)) but dont do that either!

I have so much on my plate right now.

ok any way he could be the one to leave?

the living together broken up is going to be really tough.

I might go stay with my friend in Boston.

ok what about the house? are both your names on it?

Nope...Just his name is on it. the ball is in his court on the house. But that to me is a good thing. the house could be a total burden.

exactly! thats good news. especially since you just got it, not much equity yet.

What should I say? How do i tell him that I read his email. I mean it was open. He was running late. I'm not one to read emails...but

i did

well. im not the best person to ask about that. if it was open, i would have read it too

Hmm...yeah...Could you say you were walking by and thought it was something to do with business?

ill admit it, if im given reason to be suspicious, i can be a snooper.

ive been screwed enough to not be a very trusting person anymorr

After the first time this happened I gave him another chance. But I can't this time.

What a hateful fuker.

i wouldnt lie about it. its simple, he left it up on the screen. you are not the bad guy here

I'm so mad and sad and perhaps this is a good thing.

I love him, so I hurt. I can't do any work today. I'm just a mes right now.

I don't blame you for giving him a second chance...but after that, he's just proven that it's who he is..no changing now.

In the long run, it's a good thing...but it's hard to see that now. You don't deserve that kind of crap - no one should live like that

You have every right to be a mess.

but it will get better

thank you y'all

thank you so much for being my friend

oh Amino, I'm so sorry this is happening.

Thats such a hard thing to go through, betrayal is the worst kind of hurt. But you did everything right, so you can't blame yourself.

you just have to realize that you deserve better and WILL have better.

Thank you y'all. I'm still here. thinking. I didn't do ANYTHING to deserve this. I just work.

perhaps i'm gone too much. But I have to work. Um...i work for his family btw.

Hey. Stop that...you did not do anything wrong. Working a lot is something that your partner should have been proud of you for.

I know. i hate him right now. I'm so mad.

I'm sick to my stomach.

I do so many sweet things for him. Everyday. Even if I'm out of town.

he just called me. I didn't say anything about it.

I think that's smart. Wait until you can be a little more rational about it. Right now, you deserve to be very angry for awhile.

There's never a good reason for cheating on someone....you didn't do anything to deserve it or cause it. It's just how some people are.

((hugs))

I honestly have lost my personality. This Plurk and Twitter is the ONLY place i can be myself.

He and his family are so snotty. And now I'm kinda financially trapped by them. They sign my paychecks.

So I'm thinking that I'm not going to say anything. And save a good bit of money and then leave for Boston and find another job.

*nod* that's going to be very hard, but i completely understand your reasons

Indeed it's going to be hard. i don't have to be nice to him. he will not want me to leave. cake and eat it too kind of thing.

I think If i can pull this off it will be sweet revenge.

In a month or two I'll just start packing one day instead cooking dinner. Confront him with the emails. and say goodbye.

I won't get mad. I'll smile the whole time.

hey are you on IM or anything?

Nope. Don't have any installed.

oh ok.

I've got to go. Thank you so much. I'll be back in a little while.

If you think of another plan...tell me about it later.