it's just... when I have to ask, constantly, "what did I do wrong?" "why are you angry?"I feel myself slowly and slowly disintegrating emotionally
it's so tiring... having to feel like I'm the one at fault for so long...
I thought they'd understand but they don't... that... honestly, takes away from a friendship and reduces it to acquaintance
because a friend, you'd thought, might try and see things from your side
but they are not doing that, I don't get the feeling that they are doing that
it's funny, no matter how much I tried to avoid the thought that maybe it is destined for me to leave them, too, I couldn't be strong enough to stop it from happening by not getting so close to them
and at this point it would have hurt us both
I don't have a good idea about how to resolve this even as I'm rubber-ducking it ;; I'm really not good at this
-sigh- back to work... there's research to do
（窩也常常這麼覺得……人類太複雜ㄌ 
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不過還好，還是有人願意溝通的
那太好了，至少還可以有把事情講開、取得一個新的平衡點的空間與機會…
不過與人溝通也是個很累的過程(至少對窩來說)…辛苦ㄌ
不過與人溝通也是個很累的過程(至少對窩來說)…辛苦ㄌ