DAY 4 without food or water

Ma'am. This isn't funny

Vet appt in the afternoon. Her aversion to oral medication is just too strong, we have to give her the shot alternative. But at least we tried to do the oral version

This morning I was preparing to give her another pill and she did a whole nervous nausea bout. Just from THINKING about having to take a pill

MA'AM BACK IN MY DAY as a wee one I WAS TAKING 12 pills a day at 6 years old. Suck it the fuck up

/end RA rant

I mean, I get it. But I'm also just exhausted, want her to just be better and stay better so badly and I just hate the helplessness of what ifs, what more, what's wrong

At the very least, we know the cause, we know the source, we aren't doing the same guessing game

But I really hope she doesn't do another 9 days without food/water

merrill please

I KNOW ffs right

They warned us last time that the shot has a possibility to taper off prematurely. I scheduled another shot for tomorrow. I was just wrong by 5 days and here we are

I mean I scheduled the shot for tomorrow last week, trying to predict when she'd need it again. But she honestly needed it Monday

So be wrong by 5 days and this is what we get. Lesson learned, I'll be booking it after 2 weeks not 3 like I did this time

aw baby Merrill don't worry you momma

Back from the vet! Another steroid shot and I'll be scheduling an appt 2 weeks from now to play it safe for when the shot likely will wear off (look, we're learning). She also got more IV fluids so she's got a fun camel hump that she clearly dislikes aaaaaand anti-nausea meds

Naturally after all the excitement, she immediately had a nausea spell at the vet's. I skipped the anti-nausea last time because she doesn't seem to get much help from it. But we'll see. I won't count the vet nauseous episode against it since she only just got it right before

We're supposed to pick up a topical antihistamine with that nifty side effect of appetite boost later today from a separate pharmacy

But Friday will be an update to the vet's office, Monday is another update but with more ... well, we need improvements by Monday to put it bluntly

I'm very hopeful. She made it once, I just hope she can do it again. If I have to make a decision Monday it's gonna suck but like I said this has always felt like borrowed time a bit? And I've come to terms with needing to make hard decisions if I have to

But I am very hopeful, maybe too much, that it won't be that