So I think my anxiety is getting worse, if it could do that. I should mildly trigger warning because I know when someone brings up something to me anxiety wise, it compounds into more anxiety

So if you have OCD Anxiety, get out while you still can....

So I've never been properly tested or diagnosed

I've had a doctor tell me, sounds like you have this

And we planned to take steps to mitigate it, but then I went to China and, well

China denies anything besides perfection

So mental health is not a thing

Physical disabilities can be overcome

They crazy

So nothing ever got addressed and I feel like it's just slowly gotten worse over the years.

I know I have skin picking disorder, it's literally written on my face

I've experienced that since I was about 4 years old

Which is wild, but I have memories since then and we have pictures of me and I'm always covered in injuries, especially on my face

So that's always been a thing, had no idea what it was until like 6 years ago, alas

But now I'm starting to pick and pull at my hair as well

And I have some wherewithal to catch myself (sometimes) and swap back to skin issues

BUT OBVIOUSLY neither is actually okay

And the two seem to be feeding off each other anddddddd I just feel like I'm losing this battle, whatever battle it is

So I made an appointment, finally, with a primary care and I guess I'll just try going from there

The last time I tried this though, addressing the anxiety, we had a small delay because my liver is extremely weak from the years of steroids to control my RA

So a lot of normal af anxiety meds like Zoloft which get processed by the liver are a no-go for me

Is it Zoloft? I honestly don't know what they are called but either way

NORMAL MEDS bad for me

I'm sure the primary will be excited to hear all of my problems. Where do I even begin

Ain't that just life though