workload unusually heavy this sprint, prob in part because we get juneteenth off

my brain's been doing some weird shit, it's very much in the 'everyone is mad at you and you get only anxiety dreams forever' mode that I know is all chemicals but it's exhausting anyway

I'm feeling a bit swamped by stuff that needs to happen (just little stuff like putting away laundry and organizing my office) and kind of dreading faire season this year because there are so many unknowns with it

we haven't cleaned the house in weeks because weekends are just such whirlwinds

maybe I'll do some cleaning on wednesday

I'm also trying to work out more for various reasons, which is a net positive, but I did fuck up my wrist a little bit the other day and I suspect it has caused a resurgence of carpal tunnel and I need it to Not, especially when I have such a heavy sprint ahead >:U

world brain and body all be nicer to cami challenge

i love u and am not mad at u, i am just still climbing out of the feelings pit brought on by the last week's Unpleasantness

petition for fewer things to be happening

signs it

I am mad at you

(r brain for not giving you a break)

It's rough when brains act up like that, doubly so with intrusive thoughts/obsessions, but we are rooting for you

ty frembs

it hasn't been any kind of specific 'everyone hates me for xyz reason', it's more of that just like. creeping dread/feeling of something being wrong that anxiety is so famous for

waking up being like oh no I didn't do the thing or I'm not prepared for the thing, but the thing is ???

and I mean nobody is prepared for john carpenter's the thing but that's not especially high on my list of concerns

i know this feeling well and hate it

listening to this today and it's super interesting‎Magical Overthinkers: Overthinking About Narcissism...

i believe in your ability to kick your brain's ass

also fully 'I'm in this picture and I don't like it' but wrt when they're talking about people who think they're narcissists and have to be argued down from it

my therapist got like Mad at me about this lmao

obviously I'm just tricking her

queues up

lunch enjoyer

his palate must be so refined i can tell

renfaire + callen reminded me I have to get him a harness because I'm an evil negligent mother who treats her child like a dog (and because he's going to probably be with me for some of my sets and we need to Manage That somehow)

What a cute pic of him!

The outright joy

he's a very good kid and I have no problem with him putzing around playing with dirt, I just need to be able to do stuff without him taking off into the crowd (or more sinister outcomes but we're not gonna let ocd win)

you just don't want him to star in homeward bound 2: a pip and callen adventure

look if pippin could be there too I wouldn't even worry, I'd just tether them together and set them free

unfortunately no dogs allowed anymore

aww tragic

maybe I can get pip a service dog certification because he's a helicopter parent (this is a joke)

build a little pen and put goat ears on Callen. he’ll be your kid. get it.

oh as if that would contain him

oh no little hoof shoes though

babies love [checks notes] eating cans

I mean jack's favorite toy for a long time was an empty chip bag

she's so real for that

truly

god pippin went after a bunny in the yard??? It was still alive and running when I called him back, he was very good but I’ve never seen him do that before

he fully picked it up in his mouth at one point but fortunately dropped it when I called him

The very latest in stuffed toy technology

I’m glad he let go!! what a good boy

vibes are fuckin nuts today

child leash completely valid, my parents nearly got one for me because I used to run away in parking lots and stuff if they let go for a second.

hahahaha

Callen isn’t much of a runner thus far but we’re in early days still/ he’s very curious and also My Son which means he’ll be extra inclined to just wander off and realize later that he’s lost

also re: bunny it came back, Chris tried to chase it away before we let pip out again and it kept kind of... half running and falling, its reactions were really delayed. There was no blood but we think it was sick or hurt & that’s how he caught it in the first place

poor little dude. I suspect its future is sad but we’ll do what we can to prevent any pain on our end

my mom put me and my brother on leashes when we were kids. I vindictively tore the velcro off and tore off into the mall, which my pediatrician told her I couldn't have done because I was too young to understand that. my brother was a great leash kid though

hahahahahhaha

this feels right

Anyway I think he'll like it he can be just like his dad Pip

I have today off for a holiday I don’t deserve so I got banh mi and I’m going to organize my office

also last night I enticed Sterling to play with the tie on my robe and she’s so old but she smacked at it and purred so loud

watching helplessly as the roomba tries and fails to vacuum sterling, who has yet to register its presence

unvacuumed and thriving

Canada

such as canada LMFAOOO

wow everyone has a robot vacuum don't they

we got it to combat the dog hair situation

unvacuumed and thriving name of her memoir

sterling needs to give vacuum tolerance lessons to other animals

crayon

learning song of balduran for faire. unfortunately it has a B in it Vocaroo | Online voice recorder

the "goddamnit"s probably won't make it into the final performances

gorgeous!!!

sneaking a bit of outside time before I pick up Callen

TINY

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another bunny

they’re so pretty I’m die

cuuuute