so my mom started monjaro almost a year ago. so many people have. I'm unable to. it's fine whatever.
but itd been impossible for me to feel any motivation to work out or lose weight. anything.
finally just lowered one of my medications (lamictal) by half. (200 to 100) and boom

so much better. going to an all women's gym twice a week. swimming constantly. monitoring food intake etc.

but now I cannot stop body checking. cannot stop just staring at myself. moments I think I look good and then moments I just wish I could cut off my fat. I just hate it.

I really really wish I could turn off my brain

on the positive, im now two months in the gym, I've consistently gone with a personal trainer and I'm down from 300 to 286. I've slimmed. and it's not from any medication.

but I also just feel like it's not enough and I'm so frustrated at how slow it feels and feel bigger than ever even if the numbers show differently

I hate hate hate it

/r

well no, not end rant. I hate how I look like 40000x bigger in a camera than I do in any mirror ever. or just at myself. I'll look at my wrist or legs and be happy. then camera and cry.

now /r

you're doing great, making positive changes

doing more than me and I really need to get into the gym more regularly and like I am just at this weird limbo period in my life. But you are doing well on getting to the gym that is so important and going to be a better long term weight loss.

but hugs and I totally get everything you have said and I might talk to my doctor about lowering my lamital dose considering you had that kind of success