couch boys

Callen has learned that the leash and harness go on Pippin

and Pip has the patience of a saint

oh no lol

excellent boys

he just brings the harness over and like loops it over Pip’s head

and the leash gets draped over whatever

it’s so pure

he almost started a riot bc he picked up Penny’s leash after this and she started whining and I was like noooo all done

we had already all been for a walk though so no dogs were tormented in the making of this story

awwwwww that is SO good

love how rapidly they pick up on "this is what we do to go out"

ohhh 🥹

my back is Fucked and I’m not sure why

driving to the airport to get my mom definitely didn’t help

I am just in Bummertown rn man, I’m glad she’s here but I am having a hard time feeling happy about anything

the fall sads + PMS + gestures around me + back pain is a lot to go up against ig

that is a crappy equation, yes

yeah dude that's a lot on your plate

well the elephant in the room was referenced and I honestly feel slightly better. I think I underestimated the extent to which my mom is oblivious about politics

she voted for him again “because he’s friends with Russia and that will keep us safe from them” which like man I can’t even argue with that logic

she also had no idea what Woke is or refers to. I think she genuinely just does not pay attention

Which isn’t great. But like. I can live with that

deep sigh

moreso than “trans people shouldn’t exist and immigrants are animals”

yeah that's better than it could be. glad you're not stuck dancing around it at least.

she had never heard the word “cis” before. These people truly exist

anyway we spent some time dunking on how ugly cyber trucks are so my back still hurts but I’m at least mildly reassured that my mom isn’t personally responsible for the fascist uprising

it’s still something I struggle with a lot and continue to do so, but we did talk about the potential of her moving up here to be near me after her husband’s gone. and I think this is a much harder place to live as a trump voter

not impossible to be sure, but. my mom seeks out the same kind of social groups I do and they are unlikely to stand for it

I think her friends in Florida are just. yknow.

she does not have the strongest personality, my mom

I'm sorry man, I know this has been at the back of your mind. I'm glad you're not wrestling with it unsaid the rest of the week

bro I am STRUGGLING I started crying randomly after picking up Callen bc [sad for some reason]

god this time of year sucks. I am just fully insane

can’t wait for the inevitable “why is mom crying” oh it’s because it’s November and she thought too hard about a hypothetical sad situation

fucking bummer attacks

I see my mom maybe once a year and I love that the tone of the visit is already hey by the way remember how I’m Mentally Ill

ah man I'm so sorry that's always the pits

it sucks so hard

cruel brain

this month truly the worst of all months

I'm sorry. It's so rough

hang in there pls

I am doing ok. Blanket apology for not keeping up very well on other people’s plurks, my mind kinda feels like a sieve lately

I’ll be working again on Monday so I will have time to sit quietly in my office and kind of return to normalcy which I think is very needed

aw boys

Callen had a fever last night and today and I am keeping my shit together but I’m not sure at what cost

we did at least get out for a walk this morning before the torrential rain resumed

he’s been teething I think so the fever isn’t scary but sleep has been pretty disrupted and if he still has a fever in the morning he can’t go to daycare, which means I either take a sick day or I ask my mom to watch him all day and that’s so much

considering I also need to go to choir tomorrow night

I am held together by scotch tape right now. I feel stupid that it’s been this hard even with assistance

Chris is back Tuesday and to his credit is also miserable lmao, he hates Vegas

I have a feeling next weekend we’re just going to lie on the floor staring at the ceiling in silence and it’ll be so glorious

fully not stupid for it to be hard. you're raising a human being, working full time, trying to pack in family time, and also the nature of biology means you keep getting random quicktime event disruptions that are specifically designed to make you worry about your child and fuck the rest of your schedule. that's objectivley hard

it is hard, and being held together by scotch tape is still being held together, which is really impressive considering how hard it is!