we’ve been on a nap strike today but it finally ended

🎉🎉

couple of scabs

The only good scabs.

pure zonked

best friends cries about it

this long weekend in particular has been kind of grueling. Callen is just. extremely two years old

Chris is heading away on a work trip tomorrow so I'll be soloing for the next four-ish days and I'm also kind of fighting The Depression so uh pray for me I guess

like we'll be ok and Callen has daycare etc so it won't be me sitting in toddler purgatory trying to entertain someone who refuses to be entertained and screams when I don't read his mind

but i'm already so tired and I don't know how to stave off the gloom, esp knowing I'll be stressed out

If you wanna poke someone and rant or just chat or whatever, I'll be around. <3

you're a good mom and this is a very hard job.

ty friends. I will get through it

someday soon he will scream what's on his mind

lol

echoing the above, you ARE a good mom and this is a VERY hard job even when everything isn’t horrible

ha ha for obvious reasons I am not engaging with any kind of (real life) social media or news today

I just can't fuckin do it

shan't

A good plan.

understandable

def

I have signed up for an introductory barre class on Thursday

I need to get out of the house and also my head

and it seems like something I'd like maybe

It sounds fun!

that sounds good!

I'm hoping it will scratch the itch of dance/ballet without me feeling like a dizzy rhinoceros who forgot everything I used to know and going home mad at myself

also like turns out having a kid changes your body??

Who would have thought?

more pressingly I have Got to work out this pinched nerve situation

I have to try everything in my toolbox before I go back to PT because my suspicion is they will just have me do all the stuff I already know how to do

ive heard really good things about barre, hope it hits the spot

Callen’s teacher informs me that he was, and I quote, extra cute today

i hope barre is good!!

I'm going to fight god

Callen had me up at 5:30 and he fought tooth and nail to get out the door (he wanted a snack but they have breakfast at day care) and I'm blocked at work again and people are defending the musk nazi salute and they're so fucking stupidddd

NO

cmon callen you've gotta take advantage of the free food at work whenever possible everybody knows that

is it people at work defending it or just in general in the world

oh god no not at work, I'd raise hell

just in general. the world

ok good that's something

lol fuck if it were someone at work I would have torn them a new one by now and probably gotten fired

but I will say it seems like corporate is going "haha no" at the new EO

I didn't get the email myself for some reason but they're keeping DEI

Oh good!

Another 5:30 morning. I’m feeling a kind of way

Callen no

callen buddy whyyyy

I am back from barre. it was very... what it is

my complaint is not actually that it was hard, it was fine. like yes hard but the way any fitness class will be

the skeletal woman who ran the class was very pushy and they were getting kind of weird at me about it. it's also really expensive which kind of automatically eliminates it and I was trying to let them down gently

them being her and the front desk girl

I had to invoke The Husband tm to be like let me talk about it with him and get back to you. leave me alone

chris and I aren't married but it's a word everyone understands

anyway this made me realize maybe I should just get a gym membership because all I want to do is get on an elliptical and listen to music while nobody talks to or looks at me for half an hour. and maybe yoga sometimes

man, gross. sorry that was such a bust.

gym sounds like a nice escape though, good thought.

Bleh, yeah, seconding the sorry but a gym membership sounds like a good way to move forward?

it wasn't a BUST necessarily, I still got a workout but I think I'm just not a group class with loud pumping music kind of guy

Yeah, it's nice to zone out and take things at your own pace.

if I don't get to choose the music I better at least be dancing

gym sounds good for that. also a lot of them have big empty rooms you can do whatever in. citation that's what my mom did for years

sorry you had to invoke A Man to be taken seriously

nice

and yeah lol

it's especially funny bc chris would be like ??? whatever you wanna do if it'll help

i'm the same way. i don't really like classes, i prefer to just do my own thing

yeah

like I already feel bad about myself, leave me alone lmao

i regularly have to invoke The Husband™️ as well and it makes me so mad every time it happens because it always works

well I just got violently ill, that’s fun

I’m chalking it up to bad sleep/early mornings + the class today pushing me harder than I should have

time 4 bed

oh buddy take a glass of water with ya

nooo

god damnit. this sucks, this is bad

friend is coming over in a bit to help me just for the evening and Chris is back tomorrow afternoon

so I just have to do tomorrow morning alone. I’m praying this isn’t norovirus

ahh dude i'm so sorry :< i wish i lived closer, i would offer to help

it is almost certainly norovirus

praying I can keep it away from Callen. he threw up once last Thursday night but it wasn’t an ongoing thing

jesus christ

hoping you can catch a single break here

nooooo dude

I just need to complain somewhere about how thirsty I am

I can’t keep anything down so I’m sipping a pedialyte-water combo and I cannot tell you how badly I want to chug it

but that would be a mistake

oh no wtf. how could barre do this to you.

Argh, I'm sorry

lol this is all barre’s fault

I am doing a bit better. About to go to sleep, just doing crosswords and sippin my pedialyte. I’ve kept it down for a while

I told Chris it’s just our periodic reminder that we shouldn’t try to have any more kids

you've ushered so many baby viruses into the world already

Sadly I did not keep that down much longer. I’m hoping this morning is better except Callen woke up at FOUR thirty and then chatted and yelled until he got mad and I had to let him get up at 6:10

but I am confident I can take him to school and then pass the fuck out

I only continue to exist by the grace of delicious applesauce

let cami rest

I did it. I am home and attempting to eat a piece of toast

when Chris is here I will have dragged myself across the finish line

but not a moment sooner. Anything can happen in that time

godspeed. death is in reach

No, survive, Cami! Keep up that fight!

Chris is home and he bought soup and Gatorade. I will live

life-saving provisions

Huzzah for Chris

congratulations. please collapse

please live

I am far from back to normal but I’m gonna make it

good

refrains from making joke about you never being normal

normal in this case is relative

congrats on your survival

my son is really cute

and has been kind of an asshole today. but that’s why they make them look like this

Chris took this one today also

look at those lil rosy cheeks and nose

just fully a baby from an illustration

I like to think sometimes that because Dixie passed right before he was born and she was a full Disney cat that she imbued his soul with some of her charisma

and also mischief

Aw. Let's go with this.

He’s precious. Full Norman Rockwell baby in the best possible way.