on the surface tho, parang di permitted yung tayo

pero nugagawen? being with you is like the strongest calling i had. kahit na iignore ko, andyan pa din.

what religion po?

ay wala po akong official religion as of the moment and exploring different religions pero in recent years mostly getting into Catholicism

yung instances kasi na nagbabasa ako ng books ng saints or listening sa discourse ng dominican friars, on how they describe vocation and calling makes me reflect sa life ko and the truest things ive felt aside from calling to serve God, aside from charity is loving and supporting people i love

and supporting and loving this particular person is one of the most natural thing for me talaga grabe kahit na di ireciprocate

Ohhhhhhh

Andami kong ambag e no, pero that’s a nice revelation!

that's how many Catholics are.... kahit ako. saakin na lang. how true is that. it's simple but true.

zelhirsch: why?

haha alin

pero parang reccurring theme naman to ng buhay ko

tho di ko mafit yung puzzle na may some calling ako sa isang religion pero sa surface di naman ako accepted as i am as queer. parang calling ko din magmahal eh wala ako magagawa about it

and ayun di ako makapagpaconvert kasi i feel ikakastress ng nanay ko at baka ikalala pa ng health niya

so ya know dami complications pero i dont see them fitting anytime soon,walang compromise

zErO_aTriN: para sa kin ba yung alin? Haha pero yung “being with you is the strongest calling I had”. Angsakit kaya not exactly nice in that way, but because it feels like there’s a purpose as to why “andyan ka pa din”

shet iba pala tunugan pag naririnig ko sa iba

hmm well i can live for myself naman and decide for myself, i think i can be independent of them naman pero also... hmm pano ba, ive tried in my lifetime na icontrol sarili ko and try things

i just find it one of the most natural thing to do hahaha like i always go back to it na parang home

kahit on difficult times, kahit na i am challenged, like for an indecisive person like me and di maging sure talaga sa mga bagay. sure na sure ako na mahal ko to

even if i am not loved the same way

pero yeah, importante i got myself and i think di ako ilealead sa di naman para sakin haha

parang iba ung naiisip ko in accordance with your explanations...

pero, I'll go back sa old. religion and our Lord, Jesus Christ. you need to decide. if you want Jesus to be in your life. becoming who and what you are will come to place. he will bestow upon you the grace you need....

a lot don't find it easy. but at some point you will...

you just gotta have faith.

you can't find love in other person more than him.

you can't find love in another if you don't love yourself first.

i agree

you also need to stop thinking about just yourself. for God doesn't want us to be alone....

they say "you gotta look at a bigger picture" - what is that? really? and answers could be anything or just one thing... with him you will find it.

as an individual we look for diff things. but based from a lot of people. those fall into place....

a person can never control things. cause when you do. it ends up in disasters... in some ways... but you are never really truly satisfied and you end up looking for things and then being confused for you got lost. and it becomes another turmoil.

so maybe, in terms of religion. you should be more active in the teachings of God. maybe you will find some light in it.

thanks i dont feel lost naman haha im goods and happy. i am confident na i am led to what is meant for me at the right timing.

ive been spending a lot of time in group studies and also i read a couple of classic catholic literature like mga sinulat ng saints. been listening to dominican priests everyday. been reflecting all my life. i mean, hmm aside from my personal relationship with God, ive been doing extra homework

its just that upbringing ko is another religion and i have literally been through a lot, like a lot

i am fully aware na i cant be here if i was alone, id be dead long ago if so

its just that hmm pano ba, i cant also dictate kung ano ako and kung kanino ako attracted i guess

Have you tried other denominations like Buddhism?

yeah, iba ibang religions naman inaaral ko all together for many years but even mas madaming swak sakin sa buddhism, may current unexplainable yearning ako for this one kahit na nagtatalo sa utak ko like crazy

but ya know, having a religious inclination is all about faith and feeling. I mean in life a lot of things don't really make human sense pero its a matter of what matters and what keeps you going

what group studies? can I join?

that's good, at least. no matter the difficulties, you are still able to be calm and happy 😊. so just Go with the path your spirit is more inclined to.

basta kahit anu pa yan, kung need mo ng kausap. dito lang kami. XD

yes! pero usually per series yung iba, ask ako ng upcoming hehe, minsan may nagvovolunteer lang din tapos scheduled weekly hanggang matapos yung set of lectured. usually from ascension. ask ko!

salamat sa offer!!!