y'all

fucking hell

like goddamn it ive already been stressing myself the hell out at work running our only crew for shit pay and i don't even have half the concerns many other people have

like I legitimately don't know how people in education, in government jobs, in medical fields even fucking survive this background music anxiety and also have to deal with family troubles, bills, living expenses or rent or whatever, like it's not like i don't have expenses but i live with my parents

but trans people, immigrant families, i can only imagine the uncertainty and horror i feel is multiplied by so many ungodly factors

i wrote my senators to stop confirming these fucking lunatics, but it all just seems so fucking hopeless. it feels like it's miles too late for anything we can do to work

i'll rally after a bit here but increasingly i feel the need to vent my frustration and despair. id like to say that i have optimism things will still work out somehow but i just don't know how at this point. is it too late to start forming left-wing militias? Just in case? And purely for self-defense, for legal purposes?

im trying to channel my focus into crafts in the meantime, so i'm not just spending all goddamn day worrying, but you can't afford to stay ignorant for long either with everything that keeps happening. it's designed to flummox and distress you, and to sap your will to continue. and goddamn is it effective