"the administration is ruining the world" "yeah but why aren't YOU doing anything about it"

like

at this point what would actually do anything

and im not saying im NOT doing anything

ive been trying to contact my legislators, fucking senator completely ignored the main thrust of my argument about him approving cabinet members to say "yeah, in fact DOGE IS really bad, and we'll sure fight them!" like yeah fucking cool go do that but like, ALSO THE OTHER THING

what the fuck

and they're strangling every government organization that does important work for the entire fucking world and LA's still a pile of ashes and North Carolina's still digging out from the floods, and hurricane season is bearing down on us while NOAA's being gutted and

what the fuck

can i actually do at this point man

what do you WANT me to do????

I make less than twenty dollars an hour at a job i've worked at for 11 years for fucks sake

what. do. you. want. me. to. do.

and i can't fucking complain because i don't have to pay rent, i'm blessed that my parents let me stay at our house, i try to make sure im earning that by doing everything i can to help out

ive tried to take the reasonable route. to slowly and peacefully talk with people leaning right but not THAT far right, saying "well that's not really how that happened" or "you know, that might backfire on us" etc etc, and on that level it feels like it's working, like i might be bridging gaps, but at every fucking level above that

the gap becomes a chasm

and deep in my heart of hearts

in my soul i FEEL that the only way forward is to convince people to come to our side, not shut them out entirely, because i know cult mentality depends on people being isolated from their support structures, but it also isn't something that can reasonably be done on this scale

and so i circle back to my starting point of what the fuck do i do

and after a few circuits i just fall out onto "go back to playing video games and feel guilty"

without even the energy left to look up a charity or something i can send my money to to feel a little better

im just screaming into the void of my own head and feeling bad about putting it that way because it's not like it amounts to anything more than me feeling bad.