8 MONTHS??!! WHERE HAVE I BEEN

rare youtube algorithm W

oh my god

spacemoth IDK WHEN YOU WAKE UP BUT LOOK AT THIS WHEN U DO

GOOD TIMING I've got a few minutes before I clock in and enter no video zone

I'm love them

TWINS

Cass

EMOTIONAL VIOLENCE

emotional damage

Cassevery part of the raph resurrection chapter is torment

WHY IS RAPH LITERALLY THE KINDEST AND MOST WARM AND WONDERFUL SOUL

i started re-reading again too i fucking love that chapter so much

rise raph is such an incredible character wheeze

ON GOD

THEE BEST RAPH

IT'S NOT EVEN A CONTEST

IT'S BECAUSE RAPH ALWAYS HAS THE PASSION FOR LOVE OF HIS FAMILY

EXACTLY THIS

AND NOW HE'S FINALLY BEEN ALLOWED TO SHOW THAT OPENLY

RATHER THAN BE REPRESSED AND RESENTFUL

EXACTLYYYYY

AND DANI YOU FUCKIN GET IT SO GOOD I'M SO FORTUNATE TO GET TO PLAY WITH UR RAPH

CassDIES AGAIN

OH NO THAT ONE

A PLURK OF TORMENTS

im glad we all stand upon the raph characterization soapbox together

cass reread complete I'm crying

big mood

cries with

/puts my hands around donnie

/shakes vigorously

i love this fucking turtle

he's a good (questionable) guy

he's arguably trying to do good but more importantly he's INTERESTING and checks all my boxes for fun and challenging writing

writing him helps me work out my writing muscles i still get to learn when writing him. LOVE IT

its good its so very good

juicy complexity

hes so scrungled

i end up abandoning a lot of half-written tags for him

i have like. a personal vendetta against the whole "uwu donnie is so insecure and sad (bc hes autistic lol)" trope that some of the fandom have pushed onto him because it's. DEEPLY INSULTING LMAO but also just plain bad writing

HOWEVER

that also means i sometimes write him as TOO cold/calculating/etc because i overcompensate

so whenever im writing a tag and I'm like hmm.....i dunno...... i end up walking away from it for a day and then end up deleting it to start over bc i was right and it was not good

does donnie have the capacity for great evil. yes. bc that is kinda funny to me. BUT ALSO, he does not enjoy seeing ppl in pain and does genuinely believe science (including his own work) is supposed to help ppl and improve lives (mostly, like 96% of it)

it's tough bc sometimes donnie is SO emotional and sometimes he's so cold/uncaring and it looks really difficult to toe that line lmfao

i think you do amazing i could never

honestly tho it's like throwing darts blindfolded. is donnie going to have a big feeling about this. nobody knows

he does but he's not sharing bc the flowchart has 7754335672359005312588 steps

even leo like "what the fuck" most of the time

HONESTLY. april like u just gotta get down to brass tacks with that lil fucker

I'm enjoying having donnie be like DON'T YOU THREE THINK IT'S MESSED UP THAT YOU ARE WILLING TO SACRIFICE YOURSELVES bc one day there will be an uno reverse card played in the form of "you mean how you sacrifice yourself for them" and donnie will

"one day"

LMVCFSVJN

ha ha ha

I'm back here thinking about sacrifice

i love it bc the way they sacrifice is all different

thats the hamato way

THAT'S THE HAMATO WAY

raph uses his whole body; if anybody is the poster boy for sacrifice it's him. hit him with a train, stab him through the heart, whatever; so long as his ppl are ok it's worth it

but OF COURSE the one he struggles with the most is when splinter told them to go

and essentially forced raph to sacrifice his ideals of not leaving anybody he loves behind

no wonder he was spiraling down in the woods

right
like his whole way of thinking shaken to the core

its not like raph changed his mind at that moment either; he just had to kill the loudest part of his conscience, and then grapple with that death until it came back

in the movie, raph being ready to leave once he saw they were getting their asses beat and their dad was down, is a DIRECT RESULT of having to make that decision before

do i think he would've stayed to be stubborn if he hadn't had to leave their dad before? no, i just think it wouldn't have occurred to him

he and donnie obviously coordinated the escape pod thing. he knew donnie had them and he knew how to use them

BECAUSE raph had to grab his brothers and run, leaving his dad and draxum to die, he got more observant and strategic, even if he wasn't the "official" leader

that was his way of coping with that death of his ideals; improvement and preparation

(also find it funny that raph is still the one giving orders and having them obeyed despite not being the official leader; no leader necessary they are a team truther)

and another thing that doesn't get covered in the movie

raph is

SO MUCH MORE SCARED

he gets jokey haha anxious or scared in the show sometimes, but that finale rockets him right into the "perpetual terror" category and THAT POOR BOY NEVER RECOVERED

I'M IN MY RAPH FEELS NOW

AREN'T WE ALL

as we should be

lays on the ground

raph said i never have to leave anyone behind if i get to be the special boy who manually activates my escape pod (also a team truther tbh)

raph said maybe I'm not the leader but i am the biggest brother, the one who is the biggest

the hamatos are just layer on layer of that one comic where ppl keep wrapping around each other trying to take the bullet for each other

LMCY DC VOGFBJJ

AND THIS IS WHY I HAVE A PROBLEM with leo sacrificing himself is sometimes viewed as "growing up" or like, in general, a GOOD thing or otherwise morally correct thing

do i think it was a BAD thing??? like leo was BAD to sacrifice himself? no dawg

it just IS. leo saw a problem that needed an IMMEDIATE solution, and with what he had available to him he came up with that solution

the solution resulting in his death is just an unhappy consequence

im eating your thoughts

i do find it ironic that the "listen to your team" part of the "its not about you" lesson didn't make the final decision cut at the end there. its VERY VERY INTERESTING as a writer to pull apart that reasoning and try to reverse-engineer the character motivations

raph was begging leo not to go, not to do this and leo laughed him off and did what he wanted (needed) to do anyway, which is exactly what he did in the beginning that lost the key only the motivations are the EXACT OPPOSITE

at the beginning he was scared and selfish to how detriment, and now he's brave and selfless to his detriment

OH HOW THE COOKIES CRAMBLE

THE RESULT TO LOOK AT THO is that leo DID succeed. whether he died or lived, krang prime was in the prison dimension and their ship was FUCKED up

the "reward" for him making that decision was a very obvious and tangible win; world saved, no (other) brothers dead

UNFORTUNATELY that just enforces that sacrificial mindset

in the bad future, everybody dies; at least 2 are by sacrifice on screen, but we can safely assume more are sacrifice deaths. there isn't a reward for their sacrifice, unless you consider casey escaping and helping save another timeline to be that reward

if the boys in main timeline were to pull that apart, they would probably all have very different feelings about it

fr fr its so. pacha meme

FCUKED UP AND BUILT IN GENERATIONAL

what if love and sacrifice were comorbid conditions. what if your family continued cycling through them like a curse no matter how hard you tried to steer away from that end and they kept taking away the wrong lessons,

what if they lived the kind of lives that didn't allow for the separation of love and sacrifice

u hate to see it. i lie i love to see it

i enjoy rattling them around to see what complexes fall out

shake them like a surprise box except every prize is trauma

which is a prize for ME

for all of us really

truly

Pov:If Raph died trying to save Leo #rottmnt #rottmn...AYO!!!! cw: high pitched ringing/loud noise towards the end

comatoseroses & spacemoth

HEARTBREAKING SHIT!!!!!

im calling the police

for crimes

nO!!

and then leo went to turtlepile in raphs room bc it was just a very bad nightmare tHE END

LMCGYCFA