Not dropping either game, to start with

I did have to let go of Visas, and I'm sad about that because Visas has been a favorite of mine for ages and I finally figured out how to play her... but even tho she is in many ways perfect for the "sit in the corner and think about what you did" game, I just couldn't hack it with the AC and already having a character there. So she goes back on the

shelf and keep my eye out for an opportunity to play out a good arc with her in the future! she WILL achieve self-actualization one day, just not today

Ethlyn has also lost some of her CR -- she will very genuinely miss Toph, but she has also been around long enough that she can shoulder her way through it

SHE'S GETTING HERSELF HURT IN THE EVENT bc she is in fact, NOT the sensible one, but she is also going to be throwing herself into rebuilding efforts

The townsfolk being chilly towards the Chosen is nothing new to her so she'll just do her best to get folks organized and deal! The dubious benefits of being around for two whole years :'D

I think what I'd like to do with her as opportunity arises is to deal with the feeling that has been growing inside her -- as she has grown and learned how her family's actions did contribute to her homeland falling to tyranny (because they were not astute enough to stop it, even if they disliked it)

she has also been slowly growing a terrible fear that her children, who had to grow up in the shadow of her and her husband and her brother's fatal mistakes, must surely despise her

(Altena and Leif do not actually hate Ethlyn and Quan. IN FACT THEY VERY MUCH MISS NEVER HAVING THEM AND ADMIRE THEM.)

(is she projecting what is in fact her own guilt and self-loathing onto them? m a y b e)

I am enjoying this game! My main issue is that I haven't been able to be as active as I want to, as well as concern that I'm not actually doing Paine justice as a character

So I started rewatching some cutscenes from X-2 last night to try and refresh my grasp of her voice

She's making some interesting connections and I do really want to cultivate that -- one of the things I also want to explore (which I talked about a lil last night in my tag plurk) is how important she finds recordkeeping and history and documentation

And there are multiple characters in the game with similar inclinations that I think she could make good relationships with!

also I want to get her a sphere recorder. I may do that before giving her another dressphere LOL

I'm also considering apping Julie Greathouse from Monster Pulse... If I do I will have to decide how I want to handle Kera, aka her living hair creature, and whether or not she should be a regain

Bc on the one hand I think it'd be fun but on the other I don't want to restrict anyone else who might app from Monster Pulse, NOBODY ELSE IS GOING TO APP FROM MONSTER PULSE but also like

their monsters are actual vital organs so Idk if it would be like. unfair to a hypothetical canonmate to set that kind of precedent if they want to app the character whose heart, stomach, or brain are walking around as independent creatures that they literally cannot live without

I will miss Visas! I'm sorry I was so slow on the dream thread because I loved it. Her and Fandaniel talking about their views on Life, The Universe, And Everything was very fun and interesting

PsiYamaneko I KNOW... I enjoyed it so much

I feel like they both finally got to meet someone who was on their level, existential crisis-wise

"oh yeah I totally get why you think it's all pointless, I just would like to raise some counterpoints"

Absolutely. Very juicy. Fandaniel was relieved but also low key nervous to run into someone else he felt Got It. Nervous because Visas changed her mind and he WANTS to but is a bit lost in the sauce

yeeees it was really fun :> ngl I'm down for continuing it as a PSL if you want

GOTTA GET OUT OF THAT SAUCE AND SMELL THE ELPIS FLOWERS, FANDANIEL

EVEN IF THEY, LIKE ALL THINGS, WILL ONE DAY WITHER AND DIE

{other} I spent a lot of time last month tinkering with Game Idea... thinking a lot about what it would take to actually be a good mod for a game, how I'd want to do it, and who I'd want to do it with. I'm running 3 whole TTRPG campaigns right now but that is a very different beast

I am on TFLN sometimes at the very least and welcome tags from Visas!

ooh I shall keep an eye out then!!

For tabletop, I sit down the day before or of the session and bang out a rough set of Things That Could Happen, spin up a few NPCs they might run into, and then sit down for a couple of hours with 4 or 5 people and tapdance on quicksand and then it's over until the next session

Modding is a much more sustained effort... it's not quite 24/7 but also there are not breaks, and also unlike a TTRPG, a DWRP game has more than 5 people in it and even if you run it by invite, like

each new person adds a multiplicative, not an additive, probability for "is there going to be some aggravating miscommunication situation this week"

SO IDK. I like making problems on purpose, I like the story and setting and mechanics I'm working on, but the actual Running A Game part is something I still have to put some more thought into so that I would be able to do it as a sustained effort

(this isn't even getting into the fact that I'm a PhD student and a union organizer and also looking for more ways to deal with the /gestures at current events/ LMAO)

paine is such a mystery to me and I'm so excited to find out more about her through our playing!!!!

love being a bitch who never checks wikis and I get to be surprised along with my character

awwww! YES NGL I LOVE DOING THAT TOO....

It's fun, like I'm discovering them along with my character

Also Paine would fucking love being described as a mystery alkdfj

I wouldn't call her an edgelord but she IS a woman who likes her image