Welp, finally talked to a psychiatrist about my anxiety and going to get screened for ADHD cause yeah, It's not that I CAN'T keep going like this, but it's getting way too hard to.

hugs

Best of luck

Oh yeah forgot to say, when I explained drinking alcohol dropped off for me cause I stopped getting pleasure from it, only more anxiety, she said "Oh yeah that just happens to some people." So I'm glad that at least is something that lines up.