kopperhed if you ever feel like it to help explain to others Money sucks YES BUUUUUUUUT - etc. Ideally. Fingers crossed because again, I'm only as far as my cliffnotes 95% of the time

I once tried to explain money as currency. And yes, I stand by this

I'm STILL salty at Rich Dad, Poor Dad and that I bought it and that Garp!Dad thought it was REVOLUTIONARY So. Fucking. MAD

bless you for not putting this in high contrast XD

I could only figure out how to zoom in Anything you want me to change?

you're good

Putting this into terms for not-Kyle -- Lilith & Aish were going to be part of the Garden of Eden program that fixed economics better and the relationship between all peoples, hierarchies, and EGALITARIANISM and well. Shit went sideways, and Even and Adam didn't finish their fucking training so....

The goal is to get to a Jesus level of INFINITE SUPPLY CHAIN I know how, but it takes a shit fuck to convert the general system humans developed INTO that obviously.

<- Let's goooooooooooo

moosechangerpat yeah this might be fun to fuck with the psycho in your head too. JUST SAYING BECAUSE I KNOW HE IS SOOOOOOOOOOO BAD AT MONEY He just WANTS to be Aish and can't

I think of money like an annoying pet goblin. I would LIKE him to be COOL and SUAVE and A LIMO DRIVING spaceship like Aish but instead, I'm aware that he's impulsive, not as good at math as he needs to be, and has a Goblin!Mom tendency to be like "I WANT CANDY I WANT CANDY I WANT CANDY" and I'm like

"Or we could save up and move out" "NO! THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN" "Yes it can--" "NO! we're all just going to MICE AND MEN STEINBECK AND LOSE TO ALCOHOL"

So he is currently in time out until I have the health to fix the global economics (which also means fixing the culture, education, and SO ON) \:|/ But he gets to spend on: :| Books. Because AMBITION FOR FUTURE. But only within key limits because I have a shit ton of books and I would like a library card

YOUR mental image might be the direct fucking opposite. And that is also very okay and normal. You're doing fine loves

handsoplenty some of these are black pages I can zoom in more but :T

I mentioned a couple weeks ago (I think) how workaholicism extra fucked me up because I put all my SELF-IDENTITY (esteeem, ego, PRIDE, VALUE) into working. And that was fucked up

AGAIN I didn't read ahead, I am just 1 for 1 in sync lock step all of the way

Garp Dad is unlikely to accept this, and that's fine. He's not as competent as I am at this. \:|/ sorry not sorry.

COAL Curiosity, Openness, Acceptance, LOVE

Why COAL

Poor people areThe Little Mermaid - Poor Unfortunate Souls - 4Kin need of more resources, help, time, and BLESSED ... after death which sucks, let's speed that up thx.

Rich people are ASSHOLES. Who don't spread their wealth enough CC No, do not spread cannibalism and start talking about how literally eating them is the solution. BAD CC. Okay Rich people were 1) born into it 2) open psychopaths / sociopaths who purposely do things they KNOW are evil because everyone around them does and

Fuck this is hard

-- More likely to be encouraged to continue evil behaviors because this system is a mess so much work to do. Batman intensifies (BUT CC BATMAN WAS RICH. WHAT IS YOUR POINT? HE ACTUALLY KNEW REAL WEALTH AND SPREAD IT. HE IS ALSO FIIIICCTIONALLLLL like me)

anyway

I am Lilith. Welcome to Jackass my TedTalk. Let's get into it.

Hallelujah Money (feat. Benjamin Clementine) - Goril...I've said before these are just a constant "How to defeat Trump" 101 course

I'm still mad at Obama for choosing to ignore OWS how did we get here? THERE WERE FUCKING NEON SIGNS AS BIG AS WE ALL COULD MAKE THEM OKAY

income disparity talk

Remember COAL - this shit is terrifying, and even I have reached that fucking point

<---------------- I cannot emphasize this enough. Because it's my job, my mission, my goal, my 1000 year baby angel EXISTENCE purpose

[HD] The Protomen - Act II - Breaking OutHave a song. Make your own playlist for this, I am just picking my cyberpunk "RAGEEEEEEE" because of course I am

For mugiwaralufy <- even RAMSES gets fucked by infant mortality DOESN'T HE? (yes, yes he did)

Why does Elon Musk still act like an unhappy OBVIOUSLY SOCIOPATH if he's the richest man the world history has ever had? BECAUSE HE IS AN UNHAPPY SOCIOPATH

Of course in Elon's case his "solution" is to become Ghengis Kahn with tech and have 100+ sperm donor babies but the point is yes, income disparity fucks up the top a LOT

They're just too dumb to accept that and fix it

Proving why there are definitely points where you have to do things people don't LIKE for their own fucking good

Basically when it hurts others and the more it hurts others

1 = the other reason I don't save like I used to. I am no longer legally allowed :|||| so I gotta trust God a hell of a lot more, I pray you all can do better

Reminder: prisoners literally CANNOT go work somewhere else for better pay even though that is obviously anti- free market I think you all know, Republicans don't give a shit about free market they just like lying and Dems don't care either for myriad of bad reasons fuck them both

re: why isn't selling sex legal, it's NOT JUST to control women's bodies (though that's a non-zero percent reason) it's also because all sales contracts TECHNICALLY have legal authentication behind them (ala money itself is governmental but I'll get to that in my own book)

OKAY SO

I cannot begin to disect my background on economics for reasons you I pinged specifically know and I can't say in public on plurk but

BY ALL MEANS DO YOURSELF IF YOU WISH or do it as an imaginary character (RP! HAH!) or what you imagine OTHERS to be like etc.

I will say

Mom has a tendency to undervalue her work (and I did too for too long) because it's USUALLY (getting better) not paid; she also so strongly encouraged volunteering (which I did with "too much" gusto) so we had a very skewed idea that 1) don't ask for money 2) do good things and good things will happen ~~magically~~ no offense Mom 3) It took me sooooo

much to unwind the whole "it is okay to accept survival pay for being disabled because it is also their fucking fault (the government's) for not proactively studying medicine harder to fix this shit in advance AND I will not just pay it back in spades, but all disabled people know so much more than all the dudes earning 6figures and more fr fr

I need to pay Kyle and Mom more. Just me racking up my bills

Also To a huge extent I wanted to be a workaholic so I didn't have to do emotional/relationship/mental labor and welp god said "no dumdum"

Since Mother's day is coming up... definitely want to figure out a sort of AT MINIMUM thank you flowers

Also if I knew how to fix the "pay people for their taking care of your disabled immboile butt" other than ".... give Kyle booobs????????" I would be making SO MUCH bank now Rofl BUT YOU KNOW HELP WHEN YOU HAVE IDEAS /throws it to you guys

RE: Sex work.

Obviously I want to decriminalize it, and fix the whole fucking system and show everyone BETTER WAYS TO BE with all the things, but yes, especially wrt: that and I'm forgetting something hang on cooking

Art is another one. And something as simple as recipes. But like straight up, actually tying money to real value as it improves peoples' lives so the only way to be Elo Musk levels of Trillionaire is to actually help that many people -- it helps to have money (currency) de-value with time (entropy) and require investment in yourself and your community etc.

wrt sex work: same.

How Poverty Perpetuates Trauma-Organized Systems

You probably KNOW all this so I feel silly posting it in a cliffnotes system here BUUUUUT my amygdala is erring on the side of caution due to [extremely mild] past trauma (referencing what this page is about)

Living in poverty = CONSTANT TRIGGERSSSSS

Again, you all know this. You all fucking live it unfortunately and God knows I am pushing myself at 150% often to try to save the world from it I am even now doing the Tiana thing (FINALLY) and ASKING FOR HELP but yes, THIS WAY

You can INTERNALIZE IT and represent it to others RIPPLES!!! We are surfing these waves!!!

HEXACO: Humility / Honesty (aka opposite Trump: ie literally "I am bad with money, I cannot make money, I don't understand the attraction to gold..." etc.) Emotionality (I have big FEELS about money and LOVE specific thing with it) eXtraversion (I spend on my FRIENDS and PEOPLE)

Agreeableness: Ie: "if you want to spend X on Y that's okay ^_^" Concientiousness (not specifically generous, but mindfully polite~!) and Openness (Flexibility wrt markets etc.)

HOWEVER

Financial PTSD (which is not an official diagnosis) kpet showing up

Which included: TRAAAAAUMA: avoiding it, resisting talking about it, intrusive and negatively distorted thoughts about it, allostatic load - which is when the body gets FUCKED UP about the emotional & societal traaaaauma

And yes, I've been here too (as you all know I assume)

Maybe I will get this book for Garp Dad he was saying something I couldn't bring myself to "Debate" about how ~~ if all housing had to be 10% donated to government as cost of business then people would be able to have GOOD WEALTHY ROLE MODELS ~~ instead of just drug lords and mafia ish gangs taking advantage of the poor etc. and I am just

What a thoroughly underwhelming good attempt for a boomer but wtf Do better and Be Better. Even rich people BORN INTO WEALTH do drugs and shit because they are not taking care of their shit and ignoring mental health and --

so on and so forth

Poverty does have an increase for substance abuse; yeah. But that's the case for all trauma responses and AS STATED ABOVE: being in poverty is TRAUMATIZING

Once again: is Elon Musk happy? NO HE IS FUCKING BRAIN DAMAGED if he was on paper as poor as he acts; HE WOULD HAVE BEEN LOCKED UP 70000000000 Life sentences over. He does ketamine, he has no direction, he is beyond incapable of taking care of himself and acting like an adult

seeing a therapist even for financial PTSD is a good idea tho

Intrusive thoughts = "Fuck fuck fuck fuck mice fuck fuck fuck I'mma die or wind up in the hospital and/or BE PARALYZED and there is FUCK ALL I CAN DO /DEEP BREATH HYPERVENTILATE" // occasionally the flipside is

"what if though I had all the money in the universe and could help people FOREVER :VVVV"
Also all the books :| it's a thing. A thing

Avoiding memories of Trauma: OH LET ME COUNT THE WAYS

I also straight up brain paralysis when it comes to getting myself food shopping because I stress the fuck out. What if I am allergic, what if it doesn't deliver right, what if I can't afford it but I THINK I can? and literally have to ask for and accept help or I short circuit

Things that used to be enjoyable: It is extra difficult for me to spent money and go on trips because WHAT IF-- and I have a moment like the apostles scolding Mary (Lazarus' sister) for spending money on perfumed oil as a luxury because "IT COULD DO SO MUCH MORE" and it's a. fucking. thing. Especially with food because that isn't a long term investment

BUT IT IS BECAUSE YOU NEED THE HEALTH CC, YOU NEED THE HEALTH

:V

- Sleeping: /sigh/ Do I need to point to how fucked my sleep is? My sleep is fucked. Less because of money issues but yes, the melatonin is never out of my mind.

Meditation around MONEEEEYYYY

Right the fuck now: I am okay. I am good even. I have my meds. I have my Kyle. We have a nice home with exactly as much as I need. We cooked, it was awesome. We can go on adventure. I am relaxed. It is okay. Breathe and enjoy life and the best things are a little harder for the assholes to steal because God is good at not letting them (but they try)

My shoulders are nice and relaxed and unstressed. My tummy is so loose and happy Kyle keeps petting it grrr.

4) You are all good and cool, I love you, and you have this WAY MORE than you know

Okay it's a little hard for me to focus on one thing specifically so

This weekend I wish to go on ADVENTURE with Kyle and get sugar/ice cream/fudge I am taking into account gas (luckily his hybrid is super efficient) My health / energy levels (seeeeeee what it does there? Yes?????) and trying not to focus on the whole world

I am imagining FUN THINGS

I am low-key excited but trying to be flexible (emotionally) so that if something comes up to stop that it will still be okay we will adapt!!!

Evidence supporting: yes? Trust and experience and hope. the concern is likewise, experience, but the adaptability is trust and ^ Exp

I can't work around it / gurantee it, and there's nothing I can do to make more money until then (health... relaaaaatively, I can try to keep taking it low-impact but I already AM) but also fishing Saturday is a lot cheaper and RAIN so it will be fine

More Qs I don't know how helpful it is for me to answer with how my shit is DIFFERENT AND WEIRD but hopefully you get it

Clean clean clean clean

The Conflation of Money & Labor RANDOMLY The Buck Naked in Another World Isekai is one of the most woke eye-opening FANTASTIC book series I've ever read. I was very very impressed with it. They really nail what it is like to have NOTHING (not even clothes) get sold into slavery (literally) and what unpaid labor entails

even for men but with HIGH respect for women which is DEFINITELY not something you expect from a fucking isekai which usually is just the weirdest male fantasy rape shit that is like "STOP STOP NO GO BACK WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU WHO RAISED YOU WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS?!?!?!!?" :|

Anyway

Some men can straight up lactate iirc but that's neither here nor there

Let's not forget, not only is childcare often considered unpaid labor, but when it isn't, JD Vance advocated it SHOULD be and everyone should just pawn off their family until grandparents Save the world, by fixing economics.

So Mom obviously preferred to be a stay at home Mom (* caveat: because it was literally more financially sensible than working outside and then again even when Dad got disabled) And that is cool and badass. So my concept of this is TWO WAYS skewed

1) I don't want to do that.
2) I had to do that and fucking learn to accept it. :| So again, these are exercises not for me and Idk how much it helps you all for me to do things that are obviously going to be almost the opposite of expected/intended results but

I will admit it took me a long time to realize the VALUE of things like caretaking because in an effort to define myself as SERIOUSLY NOT LIKE THAT <- (aka: I never ever want kids. NOPE NOOOOOOOOOOOOPE) I wanted to be very very cool overly ambitious/driven CEO/Banker and I had to both rework my thinking of volunteer work (PAY PPL FFS)

Annnnnnnd mental work and especially especially ^ physical labor.

Our current system overly stresses "rarity" as if it is the end-all be-all. It is not. Just because I am a rare special fucking unique ass 260 IQ snowflake doesn't mean shit when I can't get my dumb butt off the ground because I /checks notes/ decided to wash dishes instead of waiting /

asking for help :| Also. washing dishes???????? WHO CARES that a 7 year old can do it???? That doesn't make it less valuable FUCK YOU (dumdums) for thinking otherwise?!?!?!? WHAT THE FUCK. If it's so easy why aren't you doing it? Oh you have better things to do? YEAH THAT'S RIGHT SO FUCKING PAY SOMEONE TO SPECIALIZE TO FREE YOU UP

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

This is part of why money talks are hard for CC, I am.... literally all over the place with it, dwi

So weirdly I have to re-analyze does it being unpaid make it MORE SPECIAL / valuable?

No, but I think women especially just pay into the system of toiling without the respect and faster/immediate reward because 1) our brains do work better to allow it (IDK if this will get tackled, because IDK if this is common knowledge, so if Dr. Faith brings it up I will

have told you so ) -- specifically, testosterone on the brain + social upbringing with all the sexism, ideas behind money/labor "men go to work, WOMEN STAY HOME hunter / gatherer shit" = men are both better at and UNDERSTOOD/REINFORCED to expect/ask/DEMAND credit in the form of "PAY ME."

Me to God constantly:

MORE RESPECT FOR MOM'S!!!

Coercive Financial Control is NOT anything money with strings attached IE: "A LOAN. A LOOOOAAAAN YOU WILL PAY ME BACK" or "I would happily put you through college; but you must study wine-making and join my business" etc.

It's way more like Andrew Tate -> his victims. Or a pimp aka 1) it's abusive. 2) while USUALLY legal (because when it's illegal as with Tate, it's usually a lot easier to fucking arrest the motherfucker so they have to be dumber than even Elon Musk, and yes, he loves using CFC) 3) it's severely PURPOSELY

overstepping even the most CLEAR boundaries.

Extremely triggering shit: very abusive

uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh the first paragraph EXASPERATED me so much but the second one warmed me >:3

Yes exactly -> money is currency / energy so it provides access (via trade) to necessary resources which have a huge impact on everything else

-> at least he had probation >>; I mean << there's not like he could just randomly be given BY A JUDGE a sentence of "afflicted by affluence" and get off 100% on that and then have an actual RAPIST repeat that as a defense (which at leeast did not work) ... right? :V

/stares back up at God. Mouths "pay me"

God Meanwhile: How do you want me to pay you little CC?
CC: HEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLTH SO I CAN SAVE THE WORLD
God: what if I don't want you to save the world?
CC: ................
God: .... They have to earn it first
CC: /sobbu what if just the ones I love first????? THAT HAVE????

God: they are being rescued remember?
CC: ... o... oh... kay? if you're sure....?

Okay you all work on this while I sleep and I'll write my answers in the morning and call people yare yare

... The fuck that's not it

Abenobashi: hot dog (English)Be the American Japanese know you to be

Me: 24/7 but also with guns and a cowboy hat

1) people who didn't know better and fell into the Satan (pre-redemption) trap he tried to lay for my Dad (Garp!Dad) too - definitely pushed the "money = worth" line (especially oligarchs/aristocrats/those who believe in monarchy and hereditary superiority)

2) yes. \:|/
3) Yes, though mostly just Adam because he spent money/ANYTHING (resources) on the dumbest shit ever mildly exasperating. Otherwise I felt terrible that anyone couldn't have the same things I had and generally wanted to share (pool passes, amusement park passes, food, whatever) I did enjoy the looks of sheer fucking envy from a bunch of kids

when Kyle got me the T-Rex at Edaville; but less about money, more about "SPOIL ME I can't go on any rides except the train"

4) ehhhhhhhh at best/worst I was just like "aha I have saved so much " I used to save like a hoarder and then I realized "why the fuck, what is the point, money is for spending and I would rather have books/music/clothes without scrambling to make do thx"

5) ugh. Unfortunately yes, and it was very fucking unhealthy. I do not wish to go back to that.

6) I don't think so???? If purchases are bragged about it's more what they represent. In general there's a quiet shunning of buying/consumption culture for the sake of it (especially with Kyle who hates that sort of thing etc.)

7) DOGGIES / Love of friends, family, existing~~

heaaaaallltttthhhhyyyyy

yes!

mental accounting trap

Spending behavioral psychology (an anathema to me)

(because my brain is weird and does not do this)

Questions I can't answer like a fucking normie because my answers are

"Yes I used to not understand the good power of inflation and therefore hoarded money thinking it would accumulate and grow via interest. It does not. I no longer do that because it is better to eat and read than stay wanting, and missing out on amazing things that you won't have the chance for later." IDK IF THAT IS BETTER OR NOT I mean within limits?

- regretted? Yeah, I missed out on so much out of ~fIsCaL rEsPoNsIbILiTy~

Is... is that true? People are emotional about the political parties rather than the policies???? God, Lord, SIR, how do I fix that?????????????

Okay once again, QUESTIONS around this that will make little sense for me to answer, but I'll try my best

1) it wasn't so much an allowance as bribery :VVV chores are part of living in the household, you don't get paid for them, but you might get docked for neglecting/being a raving sociopath. obviously I did not have that issue. I did have a rich dad poor dad issue wherein my Dad was convinced he should teach me all the economics he didn't study because Satan

and then refused to ever believe there was something I could know he didn't. He be like that.

2) My Aunt, as a banker, and BOSS WOMAN POWER GIRL GO GO GO workaholic type also super encouraged saving TM, right up until my Dad got disabled and then we all had to rethink our universe etc.

In general I had to do all the saving for pool pass stuff, so I'd run my siblings at a lemonade/bakesale and pay them accordingly too

I definitely was eager to join the workforce TM the way my Dad and his parents did at 14. :|||||||||| Shit happens hay yo. anyway.

3) up until my Dad started getting sick money wasn't THAT tight. When that happened, it DEFINITELY was. I had to bust my savings (x10) no more arcades, way less "luxury" and eventually we kept looking at moving out because while I'd always been WANTING to move so we could get a dog and I wouldn't share my room with an abusive psycho; we moved someplace iffy

That was at least downtown so I could walk to school easier and the library and spend less time around the abusive psycho? ya. That was mildly traumatic, esp. knowing now what eventually caused the CFIDS (Cystic Fibrosis + mice hell)

it made me nicer though. For real for real. Very eye-opening etc.

4) money fights? No. Thank god. I mean there were times I was desperate to join my peers going on Canada trips or other. and in general Mom was more against it for me going on an overnight where BOYS would be ( :|||||||| ) there was a general "scholarship might swing it" sense.

5) financial topics not discussed: nah nah, part of that part 1 Dad was like "I will tell you EVERYTHING about the stock market and money and finances and you will grow to find it stupid and gross instead of love it or view it mystically! " I don't hate it, but he's right, it's kind of dumb.

6) books and no. I didn't. Now I might be on the opposite spectrum. I used to be suuuuuuuuuuper reticent with video games (IKR) especially because it was almost a crapshoot if I could play (or read) them because of health/time. I tried to learn braille so I could defeat my hard blocks u_u; I kept thinking "well that just means I VALUE THE ONES I GET MORE

But I don't think it was that, so much as I didn't know as much as I wanted or have the freedom I wanted and etc. etc.

fortunately my tastes run practical and cheaper than most. (except with food) so there's never been a desire for the usual things they trap middle-lower class people with. Defiinitely high-er end computers/games were always a "big ticket" thing and it depended. I also got a telescope when I was 8 and Dad was JUST out of work and I was like "Oh snap Santa is

real" because charity is awesome

7) Everyone. Stuffed animals, clothes * (I sort of straight up told everyone don't bother I only want jeans and pj pants no skirts/dresses ) books, etc. something something kindness of strangers

8] telescope (see above) and RIGHT on the cusp of cds starting to fade out getting some -- oh and saving like mad to get my gameboy advance and pokemon sapphire/ruby THOUGH that was also more "that kept me semi-sane during some of the WORST health aspects of my life"

9] Most negative: ehhhh trying to figure out how to get certain book series; knowing I could not possibly, and later as an adult when I lost track of which was bills card and which was my FUN FUNDS account from gift card shit and just feeling about an inch tall because I couldn't believe I could do something that dumb.

10] Takeaways for the current CC idk. I mean. I do value the TIME I put into things like playlists (mixed tapes of the ollllld) and smarter decisions like NOT spending $100 on baseball annual with iffy capacity to watch, or cable (why bother) or etc. There were definitely times I thought "Oh but we all use that" that nahhh s'all good.

lol lmao even

okay so 1] Current discussions around money - NONE IF I CAN RELATIVELY AVOID IT well depends. In general it can stress me out, (not with Kyle, that's fine) but idek how much is EMPATH, how much is just straight up "I feel like I have to re-learn the universe from step 1 >>;" and how much is "please don't ask me how I am going to pay for x, trust God?"

That's probably not healthy

2] A lot easier. My disability has never been "enough" and yet somehow (God?) literally strung further than I expected. It's easier for me to handle looking at someone else's money without mentally screaming "WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME" at God re: health/insurance/$350,000 a YEAR medicine to BREATHE etc.

3] shit. idk. Sort of a vague "we can't do [x]" CC; who the fuck said we COULD Moosey: Idk I feel like we should try to do x CC: I don't care so \:|/ Good luck
CC: do we have enough for food
Everyone: yes
CC: THEN ALL IS WELL
CC: Can I send friend MONEY?
Moosey: Yes in [xyz time]
[Xyz time]: Now?
Moosey: No
CC: :|||||||||

4] Admittedly I don't do money fights. It's the same with like my health. At worst I yell at god but \:|/ in general I'm grateful and trusting. WOULD I LIKE TO SAVE THE WORLD? YES CLEARLY. Maybe that makes me tired too? IDK it's weird. so weird.

5] Money things not discussed: yeaaaah I don't do /huff/ there's a lot not in my control. Trump. Disability. God. Cars. DRIVING. Rent. \:|/ I mean we did discuss rent A LOT so that's not a no-no topic, it's just understood, yes I don't want to live in gas heat and mice hell, the combo fucks me up. But a lot fucks me up so whatever.

6] Booooooooooooooooooooooooooooks Kyle got me some. and Moosey and I agreed to forgo Switch 2 until a looooooooooooong time yet (if ever) and also reading them is like step 1 duh. I have many. Let's read.

Will I get them vaguely? YES. And did get them because Kyle got me some and spoils me silly. DITTO ICE CREAM YAY. And GROCERIES. Maybe shirt?????

7] Books & food and ADVENTURE and also the health stuff oh and clothes KIND OF but with me maintaining my autonomy over I HATE DRESSES

8] Freedom, adventures, KYLE, yes. amusement parks sometimes
9] I'm better at minimal than I thought Not bad for a Lilith - Nabiki - Fujiko - SantaCon

Oops I skipped the real 9

most negative was that losing track - I now check my bills folder more etc. and have specific counterbalances I HOPE

Shopping addiction is not a thing. compulsive Buying Disorder, IS, but it is also a SYMPTOM of other shit going on

I also love every time she mentions her gray sweater and black boots collection. Just. Yeah. This is me.

100% of people with CBD had a mood disorder; when treating the depression, buying diminished

It's having so LITTLE in control that buying seems like the one thing you can exert will on and then that spirals into chaos too

I wonder if that wasn't what was going on with my own catastrophe

Lung dying, I couldn't buy health, I kept buying "LIVE DAMN IT CC STAY ALIVE TO FINISH ALL THESE STUPID VIDEO GAMES"

I am now convinced that is what I did to myself

Only the 2nd funniest dumb shit I did to myself

I do not wish to fill out this questionairre, again it is inapplicable to me, so I would have to abstractly reconstruct PAST CC and that's ehhhhh let's just say she's working on it now that she knows her direction even if not how to get there.

Also I find shopping uncomfortable plz hold my hand and promise me a $14 hoodie is a good deal and not to worry about whether or not I should be trying to [insert here] etc.

and remember, compulsive buying is a symptom not the disease

This was mostly all mentioned in the Unfuck your Addiction book mentioned -> earlier buuuuuut

important to note: it works like substance abuse, UNLIKE shopping compulsively (which works like a symptom and has an underlying cause)

Gambling affects different parts of the brain, more like drugs/alcohol, and 12 step programs actually work on it (unlike shopping which still requires treating the original problem and for instance MEDS won't directly help the behavior, they can only indirectly help shopping etc.)

Rescidivism high, you can ask me about special secrets in my texts / phone messages as/if you wish

COAL

You aren't failing as a human being, it's a brain quirk to pay attention to so we can save the world okay okay.

moosechangerpat you too :|

This is why I don't vote on fear. I was always taught anything that uses fear on you is NOT YOUR FRIEND D:<

AHAHAHA Confirm/deny Moosey, do dragons eat mid-level execs?

Opportunity cost

Spend money on goals and invest in yourself! I eat the ice cream to grow beach ball size boobs \( . )( . )/ GO FORTH AND WIN

These are more circumstantial for you to consider when you are directly looking at a new purchase you are leery of and/or can't weigh the cost/benefit ratio

I am definitely Lucifer in Obey Me and I would definitely put Mammon's credit card on ice (he did)

Psychic income

Budgeting as Self Care

What do you value?

continued

A chart

More Qs

next step

related:huge trial coming updon't do this. This is how dumdums do. Don't be stupid

Don't even want it

I know it might feel completely moot (it does to me) if you don't know if you'll have a job / income / etc. just, let it help you prioritize and yes, put the cart in front of the horse wrt WHERE YOU WANT GO for a little bit so you can get the horse and put it in front of the cart but you're now a whole cart ahead >>;

Anyway there's a daily and weekly expense tracker idk I feel like none of you need that but if you want it you can front it by just being like "I don't need it, but I want it for a friend!!!"

because yes, monthly makes sense for all of us

It is grey to go with her grey sweater collection

lol other capitalist "service" fees yo

Fuck the fuck off yes

Don't worry about the percentages, just do your best, you're all awesome

wee

relatable Bezos sucks

emergency fund and why

Remember it's for emergencies but you can make it savings if you get away with NOT having emergencies for a bit (let me know how that works out /stares into distance)

Dave Ramsay got anything right? No way

snowball plan

avalanche plan

inest in yourself but without the stress and guilt because you can define and show your imaginary accountant (me?) your budget

Save money by doing instead. IE: coupons or choosing free (or cheaper) activities etc.

Unfucking Capitalism!!! Make sure you read this part Mom it'll make you happy for talking to Ellen

Keep working on that psychic income because money is just currency

So I am working on connecting currency (moneeeey directly from the gov) to directly nutrition / health effects (likewise it goes anti-hoarding because it diminishes with entropy and incentivizes things like protecting against mice, and paying farmers more and even food banks because of the tangible health benefits)

You could try to do it small/local IDK I guess I could tell Ellen sometime Just fucking try it and see what happens but anyway

community stuff, don't stress yourselves, these are mentioned to try to achieve the opposite

How to discuss money better

A couple pages on marriage / divorce (number 2 cause of divorce is money) which I'm skipping as it seems irrelevant to the lot of you -- this one is and made me lol anyway

Come at them with free shit instead -- caveat for Mom, I can discuss specific tactics for coercive control behavior directly because they don't want the free shit, they want to make you spend and cause you problems

And yes Luffy, it is best to combine this with the latter half of unfuck your boundaries

People aren't unwilling to change, they're VERY unwilling to BE changed Meaning: You can't force it. Only live your best life as an example (Jesus did too)

And remember: No is a complete sentence.

relatable

The most important part for all ya'll that are job hunting

OWN YOUR WORTH!!! YOU ARE INVALUABLE ASSETS AND DESERVE MORE!!!

Prospect theory ->

= anything with risk. People overestimate failure, and underestimate the benefit.

theory of engagement

Why next lol

GET PAID

<- the reason i was always volunteering. So I could rack up experiences on my resume that ... well... \:|/ Life. It's on God now. :V

I'm working on it, including ways to pay people for curating their reading lists/what they love so it saves me time (TIME IS MONEEEEY) and so on etc.

edge states

always be learning and make sure your "why" is more than just "pay my bills" because that's how you burnout (I have that unfuck your book too)

what is in your control with your job?

shades of grey wherever I go

coworkers, bosses, and supervisors

never let other people you don't love qualify your worth

asking for a raise

Leaving your job without burning the bridges (no matter how tempting)

Side hustle

Remember to keep it part of your psychic income and do things that won't make you burnout

Avoiding MLM traps: (ie: Avon, Tupperware, and Reliv -- sorry Mom not sorry)

also those leggings lululemon

You've probably been here but this way you can also throw it in people's faces that it's hard out there if they don't believe you

artz

Monetize the fuck out of it and do not wait for me to save the world because I'm not allowed to set my pace on that

srs talk about the real cost of art

my job when Trump got elected was "survive" It feels harder daily but yolo

CC is tired now. Unfuck your work later

I dunno if I can even personify money. It's... it's what it is XD

Think of it as energy

Mmm I don't think of it as that either

I'm still reading through XD slowly

Like I need to find a way to conceptualize it on my own but

it's just stuff I need and stuff I spend when I shouldn't and

it's like water XD always slipping through my fingers

also I wish there was an unfuck your diet

There is

I'll post that /hand wiggle

when energy

ohhh

Unfuck your Work -

weeee

-- MugiwaraLufy

pimping and ho-ing = accessing external funding streams via grants and corporate sponsorship lol

2 (well 1 too but) is really smart and I have seen them do that

Respecting pronouns IS FREE but also we need to fine assholes for being assholes just saying

lmfao

sandwich time

lol napkin police

The hardest lesson for me

Dang yo

Shawshank Redemption your way to FREEDOM

Don't take a shit on the desk on the way out simply because other employers will respect that especially if that place is known for being assholes /o/