indy first bc hes easy he literally just got here and has nothing going on
- thinks the performance sucked and was more annoyed about having to talk with his human words to discuss things than about the content
- in general kind of an anxious mess he's mostly keeping contained because he's NOT used to being around this many people consistently

- personal problem: having him on forge is good but im struggling to find some sort of Creative outlet for him given basically all of forge is like. projects guys........... but

things for later

MORETTA............. now named Scarlet for real

currently she is like 87% comprised of Guilt and Anxiety due to multiple factors but most notably:
- being "new" on sun sign and feeling a little bit like she's intruding somewhere she doesn't belong
- kicking off the fake death plot without telling either aloe or vincent first (because she had a very small wigout about it and went FUCK IT. NOW)

- fully realizing she's kind of on her own in the space of "now has no blood family or job or income or home back on shore and has to organize those things if she wants to live like, at all" which satin did talk her through and give her (extremely overwhelming) options. and technically she can ask people for help, but

she's in a space where she's asked people for some BIG fucking help lately that she's like. suddenly allergic to it. i mean she was allergic to it a little bit before but now in her mind it's very much framed as "i owe my life to like 3 people right now and if i ask them for More i will shrivel up and die"

also realistically she hasn't gotten much of a chance to like, actually rest. she wants to enter a dissociative state and stare at the ceiling for 28 hours

- the performance was fine for sun sign if not for the ummmm having been lost in the ship (ocean???) and suddenly appearing there. that was jarring and confusing and less than ideal
- they made it out very free which shes both guilty about and also satisfied because it DID mean she could help vincent and jackson however she could once they'd gotten to the

heal pools

regarding the game itself though. the majority of sun sign did in fact not want to touch the button... which tracks. of course she did though because the chances of someone she cared about (aloe, vincent) enough to give pause being hurt by them was not as high as the potential to keep brocade and satin safe. hhhowever as this much newbie she just

did not interact with the actual decision making. she felt it was absolutely not her place (yet) to put a wrench in their established family discussions

it's not like they can actually die so taking time to observe when she has no fucking idea whats going on in general was the best thing she could think of

... which is good because she absolutely wanted to smack that fuckin thing !!! and it's good she did not give her opinion or try to convince them because they would have in fact hit acidia!! fucked up

everything else is more interpersonal stuff, but

- vincent said some shit to her while delirious that emotionally compromised her but we never have to think about or address that It Means Nothing (and honestly wasn't even that, like. compromising. she's just weak)
- see above re: the fake deaths but apologizing to vincent again for real is like actually the first thing on the agenda when he's up for it

- this is backthreading technically but talking to aloe post-murder. probably cry on him a little (a lot)
- go around telling everyone her new name.....................
- satin

frankly she can't believe he bit her. more importantly she cant believe he only HALF did it right but still that was a moment of !!!!!!!!! for sure. especially because she fully believes satin has ZERO interest in her in any sort of sexual way

thus begins the start of a beautiful new series of misunderstandings

I'm looking forward to everything the future may bring

VERY excited for eventually just totally misreading a situation and shoving him down like AAAAAAAAAAA BE REAL RIGHT NOW!!!! STOP DOING THAT!! (doing what. being himself probably)

SO looking forward to that

these beautiful disasters

oh mmm also
- cling to brocade for like 10 hours unskippable she did not really get a chance during the game for it to settle in that 1. he's back and 2. actually she missed him so so so so much and 3. she missed him extra after everything was going down bc even with satin rooftop date she was feeling. very lonely

but she is often just kind of a lonely person. she's 100% someone who would be happy just existing in someone's space all day every day even if they didn't interact with her. cat that wants to be on the same couch as you and/or in your lap

which is something she's only really just beginning to understand about herself because so much of her life has been "operate alone" with very brief bright spots of pleasure that never lasted long enough. but thats getting more into her intimacy issues she doesn't believe she has

Sun Sign on the ship is gonna be a good place for her
there are just SO MANY of them that are all about the parallel play

^though actually this is why vincent asking her to stay while delirious after the game hit her so hard because people just, like. don't

see: Satin always leaving his door open
even though that means Brocade's cats get in and get their fur everywhere and terrorize him

they DON'T ask her to stay. i think brocade has, once

she's weak to attention/affection anyway but that really gets her

warmblankets: it's good i'm excited

... yeah. Honestly, that read was a lot of why Satin, on the rooftop, was just. Explicitly clear.

She needed to hear that with words.

SATIN PHRASING IT AS "I WANT YOU" IS A DIFFERENT AND FUNNIER ISSUE

IT IS
I love them. I've said that already but I do.

I MEAN. it's the same. but it's funnier because her brain does NOT parse "stay with me" and "i want you" the same way because "i want you" is such a sexual thing to her historically. which is ALSO why satin saying it was so briefly weird and confusing because internally she's going "...??? we're not even doing anything right now why would you want me"

hilariously on the flip side her SAYING "i want you" absolutely carries the implication of Deeper Intimacy than just sex when she says it but she doesn't recognize that's what she's doing because she's always operating on a system of "i should be happy for what i get and not look for more"

which. generally worked, until the ship.

being in extra close proximity to multiple people she feels affection towards for weeks at a time wears her down a lot emotionally. it's a good thing but also just confusing for her, guy who spent most of her life not allowing herself to have connections (and also just not being allowed to)

Yep. Where he was deliberately echoing the phrasing she'd used about "if any of the Families want me"
but also. meant it in both contexts. but that night wasn't really the right time for physical intimacy because it would have given her an out to not think about the emotional intimacy.

warmblankets: okay but satin please consider that thinking about emotionally intimacy is really really hard and sex is so easy and she's good at it

you can be winning at intimacy if your head game is A+ no need to think about emotions!!!!!!!

No.

the joke here being that even with sex she is always fretting about emotional intimacy anyway. she spent some time with graey before murdergate and he was very sweet to her but he said something like "if you need more of me you got me" WHICH WAS. ABSOLUTELY NOT A BID FOR EMOTIONAL INTIMACY AND VERY MUCH JUST SEX BUT IT STILL FUCKED HER UP FOR A HOT MINUTE

He had to go through this, now it's her turn.

every day she is misconstruing peoples intentions because she is weak

warmblankets:

but what if... didn't

It's cute. She's very cute.

she's trying her best the unfortunate thing is just she's also just a very horny person. insanely funny because in canon she is more or less entirely fuckless until Something Happens and then the switch flips

the switch has been long flipped in her limelight au it just also intensifies with emotional connection because she's Like This

(welcome to Sun Sign)

Thanks. Happy To Be Here

She'll fit right in

SHE'S GOING TO DO HER BEST. by being as unobtrusive as possible for a bit. being in a new house is intimidating when she has to pretend to be a whole new person as well

Honestly it's not a bad way to go, especially when she needs to feel out where other members of the Family land on things like "compassion"

and "ruthlessness"

scarlettttttt

unfortunately she is incapable of turning off the ruthlessness which i assume may cause issues in the future due to her being Act First on a lot of things... we'll have to see though

generally she is only like this on like, active threats, which there aren't a lot of in limelight

Honestly, most of Sun Sign is pretty ruthless. It's just moderated by high levels of compassion
and also Gingham

where she doesn't have that balance, and may or may not develop it

having a child to go can we not die helps a lot for sure. see: acidia

compassion... i wouldn't say scarlet ISN'T compassionate but it's generally limited to people she's emotionally attached to and even then it's a sliding scale of whatever she's currently most devoted to cause-wise

fortunately in LL this is people and not A Cause like in her canons

so it's definitely more malleable

naiads: puts my paws on also

i dont have anything to say. just love zephy

hehe

gonna touch her with teammate.....soon

also eventual inevitable aster terrorizing

SOON!!

abruptly remembered i had a june plurk and thank god because i was about to make. a new plurk for exploragame

things to think about more after sleep... first run was A Lot and then second run was mostly goofy up until the end where it very abruptly became bad bad bad for scarlet

both times caused by (mother's office)

first run wasn't quite so bad because there was a lot of... mutual comfort so to speak between her and the others to an extent + people she didn't feel like she has to be kinda guarded against (aloe, frost, also yue to a point) because they're already familiar with her

second run being all sun sign she is very much trying to Be On Her Best Behaviour when only satin knows about her background and then failing to keep her shit together and be normal when it was her turn in the feelings explora woodchipper

which she is deeply anxious and embarrassed about

now everyone knows she has horrible mental health issues and that's unacceptable

she feels like maybe she bonded with yue a little bit too over both having parents they look identical to who are both horrible. and other things. but she doesn't actually know

she likes him though...

speaking of people she likes

vincent frost

THE MAN JUST SAYS SHIT. HE JUST SAYS SHIT. SHE MANAGES TO GET ONE SINCERE FEELINGS REACTION OUT OF HIM FOR ABOUT 2.5 SECONDS AND THEN HE JUST UNO REVERSES AS NATURALLY AS HE BREATHES

CAN YOU LET HER HAVE THIS!!!!!!!

the real problem is probably that scarlet is just incredibly easy to affect with sincerity because she spent most of her life not getting that, or only getting it from aloe and eriks until they both dipped so its been like. ten years

or eight years whatever the point is the same

anyway telling emotionally constipated people you love them is always a good time can recommend. aloe also got "i love you"d during the run but that was kind of a. well yeah of course she loves him.

notably neither of them actually said it back which is exactly what she expected but vincent actually came the closest to expressing a similarly intimate emotion which caught her off guard so that's fun

intention... she doesn't have much intention behind it at least. she doesn't expect anything and doesn't expect any of those feelings to be returned in the exact same way which is actually ideal because she doesn't really KNOW what she wants from "being loved" anyway. it's definitely a Want but she has enough trouble differentiating from romantic to platonic

to sexual as it is and she still hasn't really identified her own hangups wrt feelings combined with intimacy of any sort

more importantly vincent also gave her a surname. by accident i think because she really didn't think of it/have one before

going from "cygnus" to "swan" is really funny. scarlet swan makes her sound like an exalted character

it is very cute however and she's very attached to it already. mostly because he said it with SUCH confidence that she was like Oh Okay This Is My Name Now '^'

much like a dog in this way.

ALOE FEELS LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT BEING LIKE "I ALSO LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH I GHOSTED YOU FOR A DECADE"

god this is what frost feels toward Eugene isn't it

horrific

moonfell: she already bit him to death how much more retribution could he possibly want

they're even!!

she literally just explained at length how upset she is about people leaving her behind even just metaphorically. he needs to be beheaded

well leave her AGAIN and she'll be terribly sad

HES NOT!!!!!!!!!

for what it's worth brocade has said the L word and routinely called her "love" instead of her actual name and she ALSO thinks he's eventually going to leave her behind and she's coping fine with it. mostly

we're living in the moment baby

thinking about the future gives her horrible anxiety (holdover from canon) so she just. Doesn't

dont ask her what her future plans are more than a week from current she'll start spiraling

shes so relatable fr

hilariously the (canon) reason it gives her anxiety is because she's more or less Destined To Die Young so thinking about a future where she DOESN'T do that is too close to hopefulness she can't have

which drives her bugfuck

here it's watered down a bit into just a general AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

anyway he's actually reassured her pretty well that he's not playing on dipping out any time soon so she's not THAT worried about it but she does also worry vaguely about like. changes in relationships and how people interact with her when they start making bigger future moves/decisions she can't think about without wanting to chew off her hand

aloe "i'm not getting married" meanwhile if she puts on her cat effects the guy stinks of vincent frost and herbs 24/7. who are you fooling she can smell the marriage on you

hes in denial

he is

half of her spiraling is kind of comedic because it's very EVERYONE I LOVE IS GOING TO MOVE AWAY AND BUY A HOUSE AND HAVE KIDS/CATS/DOGS AND I'M GOING TO BE IN THE FWB/SINGLE BITCH ZONE FOREVER

which is like. truly a relatable millenial emotion. people start posting baby pictures and shes just gripping her head like ouuuuugh

she expressed this to brocade once and he was like "obviously we won't be going that far" and shes just like. i dont know man. do i have the gumption to be the unicorn for a married couple (will do it anyway because she loves them) (but)

moonfell: HHSJASXHKDAS

GET THERAPY

slaps limelight, you can fit so much emotional disaster in this boat

we're truly bringing the spice

oh right also

endgame toplevel local bird going thru it