was absolutely thrilled to find out about aromanticism, I think that's one of the true 'euphoria' moments of my life

I thought I was just a shitty person for trying relationships and then going NO I NEED TO BE AWAY FROM THIS PERSON IMMEDIATELY

no they're just not for me and that's okay

I'm probably in the gray area of the ace spectrum, but I absolutely don't want to have sex with people I know because they'll Get Ideas and Put Too Much Pressure On Our Friendship and going out to find hookups sounds like a lot of work so I don't bother

also I hate hate hate kissing

as for gender............ I think I have a box of gender feels buried somewhere but I'm pretty sure I lost the key

so for now, I am none gender, sort of femme by default because... /looks at the shape of me and the face of me

I was going to get top surgery this year but medical problems got in the way so whee

however I wouldn't say I'm transmasc

but possibly that's In The Box

I have had one bout of actual physical dysphoria in my life ever stemming from watching a video by a singer about low-dose hormones that made me cry on the floor

still bafled

I don't really feel connected by gender to anything or anyone so sometimes I feel like my gender is Just Me

of course feeling connected to any group is something I really struggle with

I'm so bad at community

tbh the illegality of sex work very much hampers the ability to find out how I feel about sex in practice

I don't want to have sex with a friend because it gets emotionally fraught if the answer is No I Hate It and potentially differently fraught if the answer is That's Kinda Nice

I have too many body image issues to have sex with strangers and also that sounds like work

yeah it would be nice to be able to visit a sex worker without the worry of crime or the stigma

I have messed around with a male friend before and it was fine but once he got off he totally lost focus and started playing some RTS game so I never got mine lmao

and yes I made fun of him for this later and he strongly regretted it because buddy did NOT get a second chance

I would say it was fun and we laughed a lot but obviously I did not get my mind blown

that was a really long time ago. like, the first or second season of Glee was airing, whichever one had the Lady Gaga episode (I know this because we watched it lmao)

oh my god

Oh my god. My dude.

lmao right