it's a fun juxtaposition between writing fictional romances and then looking at irl and going 'I don't understand, is this a thing people actually experience?'
I do struggle sometimes even in the fictional shipping dept bc there's always the lingering question of why do these characters love each other and then I pray I'm playing a stupid character (church) who will turn into a deer in the headlights and go 'bc hot??? and nice??? and hot???'