i would do tags rn, but my back and my screen is towards the office door, so everyone who walks in can see what I am doing -.-

but hey, at least I got highly praised by my overseer, who apparently NEVER praises people???
Which is awesome, especially since I didn't even put all that much effort into my "work" here, but at the same time does it make me nervous that the bar is set so high now and that I will eventually disappoint him ..?

i am not used to praise, especially not in the work space, because my previous boss told me that i needed to do more, more, more, even though I was already working on the most mails and projects in our team, and yet it wasn't enough

so now getting praise form someone who is that strict for doing the bare minimum feels so weird, and immediately my imposter syndrom kicks in and makes me think that I don't really deserve the praise

Most likely your bare minimum is actually exceeding the performance from people in the past. In which case, fantastic, sounds like you’re doing great and that it won’t be hard to maintain that.

I say this as someone who got praise for what felt like doing just the basics but now I’m in the position where I train new people and I can see that some of what I considered basic some people just can’t do without a lot of coaching.

Snowishness: fair point. And to be fair, I am at work Rehab, rn, so I am supposed to get used to working again after Burn Out etc ... so taking it slow is part of the progress, but . it still feels wrong

Taking it slow is really important and learning to take it slow so it can be more sustainable is a really important skill. I’m glad you’re working on it, even if it feels wrong.

yeah, just need to learn how to handle work and private time better, I guess that's the bigger problem

trevenant:

came home, did laundry, folded laundry, gf sits on the couch.
sure its her free day, but I just wanna sit here for a while and be alone

my introverted ass isn't made to be constantly around people without a break since Wednesday

one more hour to goooo ... someone come and save me, this heat is killing meeeeee

a colleague moved from his office room into ours .. he's so fucking annoying, needing to insert himself into EVERY conversation without being asked, so that my friend and i are barely talking because we are so annoyed

and when we go outside for some fresh air, he follows, also without being asked ..

the dude 20 years older than us, so it's not like there's much to talk about anyway??