This is definitely going to be a casual month. I've been very slowly trundling through various developments with core CR both positive and negative (Misty, Arthur, etc)

There was the "one or two warden cabin designated for inmate shower use" idea. I will be following up with this on Dreamwidth PWM

So now I am chilling. I am trying to just reply to stuff.

Those who follow closely will be aware that Walter has been in a very negative state of mind, that I've been seriously considering letting him go without graduating, and that I've subsequently had thoughts like "well, maybe he can graduate but it'll be super depressing, he's just decided everything including crime is pointless"

WELL

I am currently opening my heart to a wider variety of CR and just, like, "mini arcs" and maybe that will accomplish something and give him a new direction in life

But I'm still pretty sporadic to be honest... There are other passions I have in life... But people seem to be enjoying playing with me at this amount nonetheless

can confirm i enjoy playing with you at any speed

seconds

Me here throwing a few tags at a time like flower petals at a big concert

If either of mine could help with nudging Walter out of his rut, I’m always happy to play with you.

Sometimes a few tags at a time is what works best.

If you want to have Walter and Collins do the thing they discussed I'd be up for it.

quantumvelvet: talking with Ellie player reminded me that if you want to thread or otherwise establish Walter filling in Nancy on lore (biased), that can happen

Walter, no! Open your heart to love and peace! Vash will help!

Vash mini arc is so truly and literally my hail mary

AisuYoukai: yes!! Port is coming up soon so it will be useful. though I will also be curious to see his reaction to Upcoming Post...

Port is later in the month so I will be doing a log sometime...soon... hopefully. lol. This week, I'm hoping.

Can include stuff for Walter or can make a separate thing for them later down the line.

(Now I am curious about this upcoming post...)

I think in hindsight it is going to be VERY obvious

but man I'm here like
why do none of these musical song titles work lol I'm freaking serious

Eheheh.

it's important!! for setting the mood!! of the post!!

Hey, I spend way too much time looking for lyrics/songs for posts, I get you.

I always fear I'm going to reuse a song, too, because I have such a short memory and Collins has been around for a while. >.<

ok this at least gave me a different idea for a musical to look for songs FROM

/o/

I would be up for doing a lore thread!

I HAVE DONE A LISTEN-THROUGH OF THE SONG. IT IS SUITABLE. YEAHHHH

Has anyone mentioned Pyotr's absence publicly?

no, most people who were close to pyotr know he would not have wanted an announcement. i believe this "party for no reason" is walter's way of trying to avoid any such announcement by posting something without actually mentioning it

(if im wrong, lenga can correct me when she gets back ^^)

Yeah, it feels that way to me.

I ask because Collins wouldn't know in that case what's up with Walter. I feel like maybe he would if he was more aware that Pyotr is gone rather than just thinking he's seeing the other less. If that makes sense.

But yeah. Collins's reaction as of now is just... what the heck is Walter up to, this is different. XD

^ I am still busy for another hour but yeah Alex has the right idea, that's what I said in our chat

o7

I just wasn't sure if I missed anything else along the way. There's been a lot.

Yeah lol. SO MANY disappearance announcement posts the past few days

Yeahhhhhhhh

But I managed a tag so huzzah!

I also enjoy threading with u at whatever speed

Loving!! This angle with Collins!!

hahaha. well! he got his attention.

pyotr and walter karaoke night on the enposib...

when they were both manic af

those were good times

the good bad times

Like the initial angle "practically only person who will talk to him without this place is so wonderful". Maybe... Bond closer...

im cheering for them

Walter is definitely feeling a lot of feelings because he truly believes Pyotr is, for all intents and purposes, in a better place

I mean, seriously. Everyone always eventually shoves that down his throat and Collins hates it. This place sucks. It is not great or wonderful or purposeful.

(Collins is trying but he's not in the greatest of places right now either tbh. He has not be doing so great. Maybe it'll change with port or something. Who knows.)

Port... Walter thinking lots of thoughts and feelings about how he worried Stockwood would be the last port and he was right...

Oof.

...he's being facetious. but also why is there a special machine for singing along to music. lol

He has a point. To be fair Walter isn't really explaining the "no vocal track" idea

lmao yeah. Collins is clueless.

Look at them, having a real conversation though.

To elaborate on some of this
Reminder that in canon Misty, without having wanted to do so, kills Natalie, while Walter becomes her boyfriend
In season 3, six weeks later Walter comes to Misty like "funerals and memorials are time honored grieving technologies. Maybe you should go" (SHE WASN'T EVEN INVITED)

And he had a lot of reasons for saying that, but anyway...
There have been so many announcements lately, most notably Varker announcing Hannah when Walter had no reason to even think they knew each other
So he has to get ahead of it somehow
He did have genuine faith that multiple people would want to share a moment of silence

When I was choosing the musical, I started thinking about Chess. You know, it's got a Russian. But here were my list of songs iconic enough that everyone would know they're from Chess
* Pity the child
* One night in Bangkok
* The deal (no deal)
* You and I
* I know him so well

Actually the deal no deal didn't even have name recognition
None of these worked for a lot of reasons though one night in Bangkok stayed in contention the longest because of, again, the idea of ports as a brief respite from all this

Then I was like maybe Tchaikovsky??? Maybe some other musical with Russians? Anastasia??? And I FINALLY REMEMBERED LES MIS. and this song really really suited the situation.

Drink With Me is definitely apt

if Varker actually knew what the get together was for he'd be respectful of it, potentially even take his leave in the understanding that it isnt for him but the people mourning/celebrating Pyotr.

Yeah Walter is just here like ah. Oh no. The consequences of his actions

poor man. trying not to be suspicious and having to live with randos showing up

Speakeasy is, in the end, a very public space

Semipublic. Literally half the public can go

SAIN'T TLV

【FLOWER】 Better Off Worse / CircusP [ ⚠ CW ]

I need the people to know
Walter: I'm trying to make this designated warden cabin to use as bathroom project happen
Malcolm: doesn't Arthur 's polycule have a million cabins? Go ask them. They genuinely want to help
Walter: okay
Arthur: ... This is a conspiracy to avoid the obvious solution of renovating the existing bathrooms

Walter: who would have ever thought Malcolm would be wrong about whether talking to a specific person would be a good idea, and/or about alleged cabin safety

He honestly thinks it's legitimately plausible that Arthur is the one who is right considering that the only time cabin safety worked during his time was the TRIAL FOR SINNERS

But that's just another friendly reminder that the admiral literally specifically conspires for them to be tortured like literal hell, and that the wardens all to some degree accept this

now to be fair arthur doesn't think that this is a bathroom conspiracy, just that walter's natural propensity for scheming and conspiracy is getting in his own way for seeing more straightforward solutions

Walter honestly did kinda hope this would pit wardens against each other but he's also like really? The instant Pyotr is gone, I finally get clocked over fuckin bathrooms?

It was truly so funny writing Walter saying "I'll have you know this is not a conspiracy, this is a public scheme" like saying with his full chest it's still a scheme

sorry not sorry that the only way walter was able to outsmart arthur was by literally just not talking to him until he was ready to strike, bc otherwise arthur would have pinged him almost immediately

Another thing is just like Arthur due to his very different life experiences doesn't seem to be really relating to where Walter is coming from in terms of an actual room-like bathroom being so much better and also kinda hard to accomplish within the existing bathroom cluster (even assuming totally normal renovation)

Which is partially future privilege but also... genuine PTSD... ( not saying Arthur does not also have it or other trauma) Just like in this specific case

oh nah man, arthur grew up in an orphanage. he's fully aware of the horrors of communal bathrooms and also the genuine peace a private space to be vulnerable and naked can be

walter just hasn't earned the rights to his tragic backstory to sympathise with

That was just the vibe Walter got in that moment like "oh but you get to lock the door. Much wow"

that's fair. arthur still thinks walter is a dipshit at a fundamental level

Walter, Malcolm would have advised asking sheehan or John. Never go to the guy you tried to eat. But good on you for apologizing. /slaps him on the back

also I love that it's Arthur's Polycule

it is; he's the hub. the centre.

he's not romantic or sexually involved with anyone except his husband, lmao

he certainly has a gang mind you

to the outside observer, what's going on in there when the door is closed is unclear. but it's clear Arthur is the core of it.

How is Walter supposed to make that distinction. For one thing John felt all that psychic energy at the same time

And as for Sheehan, Arthur is the one promoting this bill that has as a central pillar "oh yeah maybe your lover will be too biased to act as your adjudicator uwu" (which is part of why Walter genuinely believes its sole true purpose is to relitigate Arthur's personal grudges)

Walter is Arthur's sole personal grudge

Walter points at how he is bringing up Lark over and over over the course of many months. Sure (like Thrawn also perceives what he has observed this way)

genuinely that's a professional grudge, lmao

Walter: does Arthur have multiple "professional" grudges

extremely. and he wants them to be held accountable when they fuck people over

(Arthur is not immune to being held accountable)

what's funny is that Vincent put that in because of Erik (the 'my lover did a booboo) because he felt like Godric didn't give a shit about the people he hurt when he came in

Arthur had nothing to do with it.

Man. Props

That would truly win him some Walter points (killed by Eric)

(and perceived Godrics reaction kinda uwu)

ALSO killed by Eric

Vincent was the one who aired the footage of Eric getting his ass beat by Archer

Hanna first meeting Vincent as the man livestreaming fights ah yes. thats my man.

Maniette: Arthur would have had that mentioned to him, if it comes up

Man now I'm shaking my head at the lost opportunity of Walter going to Vincent like "... The idea Eric didn't start that fight with Archer is completely insane, right"

(Malcolm tried to tell him it was not self evident)

Oh he saw the whole thing. He absolutely did.

but he can definitely go talk to Vincent about it if he wants

Vincent's feelings on it are 'he started it, but as much as he hates it Eric probably shouldn't have had the shit beat out of him but also Godric didn't do shit so it feels like it evens out even if I know, realistically, this is two failures of a system and that isn't better'

Walter's main feelings on the fight were like
Eric shows up not fully nerfed. He kills several people. Godric says he talked Eric down. Literally no punishment. Eric fights Archer, and it's self evident he was not nerfed and he started it
THEN Eric ASKS to be nerfed

This is one of those many barge stories where, somehow, Walter thinks the only person who comes out looking at all good IS ERIC

Though he doesn't really actively have feelings about Archer in that situation

Like he doesn't have any opinions on whether or not Archer was doing an overkill

Unfortunately by now it's been a year so Walter has totally forgotten about these aspects but maybe they can come up again in some other form

Whereas Vincent doesn't trust anything of Eric's motives and would suspect his motives on the nerf

Walter would agree "Eric AND the wardens were acting sketchy" carries more water than "the wardens were not acting sketchy"

he doesn't even think the wardens are sketchy just... preferential

I need the people to know
"Why might other people want to be here, what reasons might exist outside of your self-serving, myopic point of view?"
Walter at least not saying every single goddamn asshole thought that comes into his head (though obviously he's still at a level that many would see as unreasonable)

But like
Ok. He can accept that people genuinely think that graduates become more moral and happier, due to many different examples
He disagrees but he can accept that people think this is genuinely the informed conclusion they drew as opposed to immediately just swallowing the claim of a suspicious alien demigod

BUT
Walter does genuinely think that every single warden can easily be proven to be
* Numb to their own self preservation and needing to feel needed, due to severe personal trauma (Malcolm)
* Under immediate personal duress (some are even just dead)
* Callous due to different social norms, often nonhuman (Sam, Tendi)
That's even separate from morality

don’t pity your warden, Walter XD

John: ...calling them callous is a judgement on their morality, sir.

Shaw is the classic example of callous but moral

HE WILL STOP PITYING HIS WARDEN WHEN HE STOPS WALKING OFF GETTING CHEWED

no promises

Post by @notgreatbobTLV reassurance for all the characters who are like "this miserable period of time was a net negative"

Muse - Unravelling, Supermassive Black Hole & Starli...this set came at the exact time I needed it

playlist for walter on the barge?

underground star

I guess it does mean what she thinks it means

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