okay, post early then

well whatever but like.
Oh my dear loved one...

(i realized later uploading it to tomblr was bad idea) you yhave to turn th evolume p up b/c it was recorded on my phone but please tell me im not insane for not wanting it to sound like that right where i am putting my head to sleep

ignore the broken theme that was a test blog i used lmao

20250709_085715this just is unlisted vid i finally managed to get of how it sounds talking in my living room

tbqh i have not slept in my own bed the past like 4 days, and kind of want to move back ther eb/c the fucking fans aren't on rn among other things, but now i have the fear of taking of headphones to find Other noises

im debating on just sending this shit to my landlords and being like 'are you going to do anything more?' b/c lemme tell you i'm so tired.

idk how deranged i sound b/c its not even 'normal' noise complaints but what i should also reiterate is that fan noise is really loud when they turn that on, and also vibrates my floor and entire bedframe

theres other noises too which also bother me but if they come back again ill have to record them too

idk what else to do b/c like. the only other thing to do is to move out and i do not have the money or energy to do that. even just looking at any sort of 'affordable housing' options exhausted me lol

i'm also having to hound people with phone call after phone call just to GET a rejection which im probably gonna have to do lafter this, i have to go fucking call my medicaid that el supreme dicko hasn't ripped out of my hands yet and find out why the hormones aren't going thru despite them sending me a message it was

and i have some work shifts i finally picked up tomorrow that i dont want to do b/c its outside in the heat or hwatever and im running on like a collective 5 horus sleep

lol sry i am hoping one day that i will have something good to say but yeah! life is actively shit right now and it's not like i got anyone in the area who hwcan help

i am maybe oging to try moving back onto my bed b/c they're being obnoxious in the living room again and and least they aren't inducing migraines right now so ill take what i can get

if anyone knows how to get a fucking job in esta economia let me know

im starting to thing they are rejecting me b/c they realized im trans or something

ugh I'm sorry

I did end up sending the email with vids in it to le landlords which doesn't fill me with a lot of faith but tbh I did say that I could and maybe I should keep recording their noise every single day

let's see their AI chatbot sort that out

like pls at least tell me I'm not insane for finding all that incredibly untenable to live around

Yeah that’s freaking ridiculous