So it's the first week back to work and I was initially assigned to an elementary school. Okay, cool, more work, but I'm fine with it within reason. Still, I did tell my acting supervisor the high school I was in the past two years was preferrable

They'd say they'd give me a call if something opened up and in the meanwhile I said I would show up at the elementary until then

I really was willing to stay at there, but some things I've dealt with the past three days:

1) Parking sucks, the school is in a neighborhood and there isn't enough staff/extra parking and I got a citation yesterday from parking in the neighborhood

2) The class I was supporting is supposed to be a mild/moderate class of 11-12 kids.... which has been not great to put it lightly. Half the class? Really good listeners, tolerant despite how crazy the first week is, these are kiddos doing their best

3) Majority though are too wiggly, misbehaved in the regular crappy way that incites the other kids, and straight up aggression when there's a trigger, no sense of boundaries with one another

4) This is a TK class and it's not surprising if some kids still aren't potty trained especially in a mild/mod, BUT like... almost all of them needed diaper changing and I was just !?

summer school was challenging, but I would say only one or two kids in that class needed diaper changing

5) the sticking point to me was that they did not have a teacher for the class... and the first day didn't even have a long term sub to step in until Tuesday

so yeah... the sub that did come in seems good, but it'll definitely take a week or more for them to get settled.

long story short though, work called me yesterday and today I'm back at the HS wheee

I told Chris on Discord that I felt a little bad about the switch on such short notice, like everyone I was working with in the elementary were feeling the weight

And the assistant principal that stepped in to fill some gaps seemed to have a good impression of me because of how I worked with the kids and my experience. It is what it is though and I'm just telling myself that I don't have to stick with stuff out of guilt

If I stayed there in the long term, I can see myself getting burnt out super quick, getting resentful/bitter and kids can feel that energy and it would only make them scared or reinforce behaviors

There will be some shuffling around still, but that's just within the high school now, I'm just so much more relaxed lmao.

Honestly, what I'm really touched by is the vice principal here told me that they asked for me and was wondering why I couldn't be here at the beginning of the week. The coordinator also let me know they asked for me and the history teacher I worked with last year

asked how I could aid one of his periods and I told him who to go to and im laughing bc it seems like he really will ask for me

So like, it's really nice that I have some impact? that my presence here and being consistent has been appreciated and in return I can be in a relatively calmer environment, but continue to assist (also slightly more hours thus more pay but shhh)

so yeah, thank you supervisor stand-in to listening to my request