good lord december can't come soon enough, I thought I was going to leave this month, I was guilt tripped into staying and NOW things are even worse

actyually it's probably february but holy shit I want to change y job why am I such a pushover?

I used to draw, write, study, dop stuff

now when I'm not at work I'm just always tired, I don't even really play videogames anymore

Dude you HAVE to leave. They will never let you go at this rate and keep forcing you to stay because they know you won’t say no. They are taking advantage of that big time.

I'm aware. I will leave next time I won't get to pay for that.

I missed my window that was in mid august, the contract renewed automatically so it's 7 more months

BUT

it's the last seven months

I think they burnt the bridge with the 13 hours away from home instead of the vacations they promised me. they're LEGALLY OBLIGATED to give them to me before december anyway

and I went from 'I can try' to 'fuck you'

literally all i did for hobby died down and I'm hiatusing everywhere next month because I know I'll be running on fumes but duh

at least I have crocheting with me, it somehow helps my nerves immensly