So for all the vacation was hell and stress inducing there were some really great highlights

One of which was that my wife and I, on our first day there, went for a walk on the beach. It was cloudy and cold and low tide but that made it SO much fun

We walked along the beach and found this big set of tidepools that looked like an island(had to get some fun forced perspective shots because it was fun

We also saw a BUNCH of moon jellies and sea nettles washed up on shore

ooooo pretty beach

I found half a sand dollar and the emptied out body of a crab that was just like the top half of the head, meanwhile my wife found a ton of cute little shells. I wanna make something out of all of it because it was such a big moment for me

We joked and laughed and I hadn't smiled so much in so long, my face hurt....both from smiling and because it was so cold

It never got above like 65 all weekend and compared to the 100+ heat wave portland was having it was HEAVEN

captain_flyboy: It was SO pretty! And like a five minute walk from our airbnb

So my wife and I started out as friends in high school, we dated for a short time, we were even in a poly relationship with a guy at one point but that ended terribly. Mostly because he treated me like shit and she has ALWAYS been incredibly important to me

Namely because as she has said: she's always loved me

It's funny because when we first met I was female presenting. I didn't know who or what I was or was going to be. I was a frazzled high school student who slept 15 minutes a night because of anxiety and insomnia and came to school late, but she didn't care about how loud I was or how annoying I could be

she doesn't care that sometimes I retreat into myself and can be snippy. She's patient and listens and god I am a fucking sap

Point is!

We started this whole marriage idea because I was transitioning, and she wanted a kid. I wanted to be a dad but never saw it in my cards and we used to talk about her being my surrogate since medically I can't carry a child due to pcos.

"We", more like I, talked about it being platonic and joked about it being for the tax benefits or something

but she loves me and I loved her I just wasn't sure if it was romantic

then we went for the walk on that beach

I kid you not I realized that I am head over heels absolutely romcom diabetes inducing sweet in LOVE with my wife.

our friends teased me when we got high and I confessed it to them. One of them, Viv a transfemme nb, called me straight teasingly. It was a blast

After we all went to the Aquarium WHICH WAS COOL and walked around old town we ended up going home, those of us who smoke went out and smoked a bit, and then I went down to bring my wife some of the skirt stake Viv made because she was peopled out and I knew she was excited about it

We did something we haven't done in YEARS

we laid in bed talking while we put something on the tv and munched on fudge and candy from the coast and marinated skirt stake.

At least one person on my timeline can confirm: I am INCREDIBLY sappy when I'm high and I decided to tell her what I told the others

We laughed and talked and laid out with our sides pressed together and for a moment I could forget how fucking frazzled I was from everything just laying out cuddled up with my wife.

If she ever asks me to go for a walk with her again I don't think I will EVER say no

ALSO WHILE ON THE BEACH A SEAGULL WANTED TO STEAL MY CRAB SHELL! He kept sneaking closer to us XD

look at this menace to society

Awww that is so sweet!

This is cute as heck. And not gonna lie, I love that you ended up marrying the only person you dated that I 10000000000% thought was perfect for you. X3 Meant To Be--

cuties!

Imma a saaaaap