When I was little and Mom was stressed about anything I would clean. Of course this is how I got CFIDS (cleaning mice fucked my microbiome in conjunction with undiagnosed cystic fibrosis) and I worry I accidentally spoiled my parents silly as they neither realized this was highly abnormal.

But I wonder if it's really that unusual. \:|/

Stephen Miller hates cleaning. He had a maid all his childhood though so he never knew the joy of cleaning much less was driven by self sufficiency or pride or anything other than pure unbridled seething racism and hatred.

I'm morally opposed to caste systems, but that is a waste of human DNA and cells and oxygen consumption that needs to spend several lifetimes doing nothing but cleaning poop.

Dems vs Antichrist

Such a good playlist

I hate cleaning XD

My brain needs cleaning. It is horribly muddled

kopperhed: That seems to be going around

handsoplenty: Luffy-bro did say I'm crazy and "no one [but you, CC and APPARENTLY KYLE] likes cleaning"

I mean that's a given

He modifies -- he likes cleaning at work now because he gets rewarded in status for it but at home where the only reward is clean environment he does not

TBF it's not that Aish is obsessed with cleaning, he just hates being dirty. So that's kind of the Kyle thing of maybe cleaning isn't the thing he likes, he just doesn't like his brain feeling muddled

Which vibes with Freud

How Does Sublimation Influence Your Behavior?

So literally I have always liked cleaning, because it makes me FEEL useful, and then tidy space, and whenever Mom was anxious/upset I would clean and that helped me ward off the empathy absorption of her anxiety and she would usually/often feel better

THOUGH AGAIN; I feel like I reverse spoiled her anyway

I also wondered if my constantly NOT doing emotions but instead kind of just... workaholic 24/7 was all that healthy considering

and/or what if it is so healthy that's what Stephen Miller & Trump can never get because they literally do not understand/can never feel the joy/pride/accomplishment of it? >;T

But it is also transcendental because I mean it wrt Justice as well.

I'm not saying cleaning is justice, but I DO think they occupy the same pathways in my brain. And a LOT of justice types (cops) view CLEANING as metaphysical wrt crime

<- which brings me back to ICE & Trump: they keep TALKING about cleaning up crime and the ~streets~ because they know they can't fucking clean their messy messy brains, and furthermore, the narcissism means he can't accept negative adjectives about himself so he reverse it onto invisible fictional enemies etc.

What I like about cleaning: I feel good afterwards. I like having something tangible I can see the literal even micro progress in, especially when everything else I do is so grandscale even when I'm allowed to see it, I can't always/often. I like having clean space.

My autism also adores organizing, and it's a MASSIVE hyperfocus for me. Like separating all the colors in M&Ms? YEAH I could spend 4 more lifetimes doing that for no reason other than the joy of it

-- That I know is my nuerology speaking BUT STILL

And yes in general ime autists enjoys cleaning more than others \:|/

which again leads me back to > is it a "too much empathy" coping? Is it preferable to emotions? Is it because you can do it without others and then they have respect for you? (g e n e r a l l y obviously Stephen Miller doesn't, which is why he must clean for another infinite lifetimes for every person he's hurt etc.) - because I do like the

healthy pride

But also it's a kind of zen thing, I can't be 100% alone in, because people play the shit out of powerwasher simulator etc.

they're certainly similar in terms of being neverending struggles against entropy