tried taking a nap cause i'm a lil tired, but i am debuffed with permanent butterflies-in-the-stomach because of thinking about The Characters

like the kind you get when you're a teenager and think about your goddamn crush

is this what it's always like??

did i just somehow avoid this with every other fandom in the past

i feel completely ridiculous right now

like i should put on a clown nose cause honk fucking honk

i know i sometimes see my friends crashing out over fictional characters, and you know what chat? i thought i understood that

genuinely thought, "i can imagine what that must be like"

i was a fool