where because I have so few threads and no obligations, I can boomerang very easily, writing is like a hot knife, etc.

but bc we've all been through this rodeo I know at some point some slow creep of exhaustion or obligations or distraction (or drama I guess) will happen

yet it's still so odd to be at the beginning of it

MAKING JOURNALS, rediscovering old journals (did you know I used to play steve rogers?? I didn't! until 2 minutes ago)

(I really liked bucky in thunderbolts so that sent me down a rabbit hole)

it's so fun when rp is just exciting

may this stage last a long time for you!

honestly I miss that feeling, maybe I need to take a break for a couple years...

speaksincolor it really is a fascinating reset. I can't tell if it's bad like some kind of relapse model or fine like 'for everything a season'

probably a bit of both; rp as a whole has been the source of literally the only drama in my life in decades, but also it's the only way I'll write creatively these days

yeah I can totally see that. I'm one foot in other forms of writing these days, and I'm kind of wary of how I might fall off-balance if I get really into rp. but also idk, it's not the end of the world

like if I want to app to a game and let that cost me other writing for a few months or a year, lol. publishing is so bleak irl right now, who gaf