It's highkey annoying that the structure of school is a big part of what helps me actually do shit and learn shit but now I'm not doing anything I especially care about so it's like damn my limited focus energy is being partly wasted on just getting grades!!! this is the burden I must bear for getting myself into this situation though. just one more year
I can be such an academic type when my interests align with what I'm actually doing, why can't I take the Basic Economics by Thomas Sowell class or the A Secular Age by Charles Taylor class , I actually want to read those!! I could use the structure to give me the push to actually do it!! I don't wanna read shakespeare grahhhhh
Shakespeare is a little interesting sometimes and I've been pleasantly surprised by an aspect of his work a couple times in that class so far but it's definitely not my wheelhouse on the whole, not bitter about it but it just sucks a little that I've put myself in this position
