in general, since about april things have been hectic and wild in these parts. it’s no secret that i’ve been around erratically and am just.... tired

i worked 3 12-hour days last week and this week i came into work around 7am and left closer to 8:00pm twice

my team is... toxic at best and my boss isn’t really helpful right now and we had lay offs that affected critical staff so there’ll be lots of things to cover and figure out

my move to a new city hasn’t really turned out how i’ve wanted it to so i appreciate everyone who’s been patient with me as i get my life together

i keep trying to make things work but i’ll definitely be evaluating stuff right toward the end of the year since i just feel... guilty because i wanna write and do the things but im so drained and constantly behind

why this means for rp at least is....

i think it’s time to hang this one up for now, i’ll probably have eddie going into the void at the end of next month as the illusion breaks for this “alternate rubean universe” plot

it’s been such an amazing run but... i think it’s time for this little bat to fly off

chase his vampire dreams in the void

i also just cannot at this point really put mental energy into plot things that require thinking and investivation and proper engagement. and rubi definitely does so it’s not fair for me to continue to just... coast as i have barely scraping by

i am gonna post on his birthday log though if anyone wants to backdate halloween shenanigans through november

this place is safe since it’s my silly fun times and chill. i am planning to keep both eddie and jace for now though we’ll see how november and december pan out — jace will be having a time since he’s the last targaryen standing

maybe it’ll be a good time

depends on what death consequences he’ll get this time around with death #3

i also appreciate how texting threads can still develop such deep cr here for me! and i’m appreciative of what i can do when all i can manage is... brain go brrrrrrrrr for anything else

not that i have been super active

i have a meeting now (who schedules meetings on fridays it’s so cruel!!!!) but i will be back for more on egore & psls

smushes u gently

i am going to continue to give a shot! and just... accept the slowness but try to prod at things more through the end of the year

it’s so cool

i am just no brain, sad brain, tired brain rn

ceedawkes: holds ur paws

overall, i love all my cr everywhere and i am so lucky to have played in games. i think ultimately right now its time to recognize i am on a struggle bus and to see what i can do to ensure i am not stretched too thin!

and so i can give you guys the best version of my characters

& maybe also stop being a little bundle of nerves about things

picks u up

coffinmate:

JACE!!!

cryptids: they need to do a check in!!! is set getting death consequences?

jace is gonna be a changeling

omg jace n jem changeling twins

dogmatic: it’s time to do something fun with this, i think

(threatening) (affectionate)

they should fuck w someone i think

dogmatic: yes but whomst

set is not getting death consequences this time! <: he's untouched unbothered and unmolested still (im saving up for GOOD ONES)

need to pick up jace cr with one of mine

cryptids: he should see jace’s messiness with consequences though

mercutios: please!!!!

come ask murphy about your hands, jacey

may have noticed murphy did shoot a "what in the fuck" glance at danny during that particular revelation

though for more fully positive cr might want to pick one of the others lmao

YES!!! what is jace going to be