“I’m gonna leave you, I’m gonna leave you... one of these days”

Going from “oh, you’re so not perfect” to “oh, you think you’re so perfect” to “oh, we used to be perfect” HHHHH

“I’m gonna leave you, I’m gonna leave you... one of these days” to “so I’m leaving, I’m leaving... just a few more days” to “don’t wanna leave you, don’t wanna lose you... bring us back to our better days”

SEEMS EVERYTHING’S FALLING APART
EVERY DAY LEADS A DIFFERENT WAY
AND THE ENDING, I WANT IT TO START
SO GODDAMN, I HATE YOU, HEART

holy shit the end though
I can’t

“The ending, I want it to start” kills me every time

The buildup to “so goddamn, I HATE YOU” before it trails off and he softly finishes with “heart”

Like
Sobbing rn
He doesn’t hate her
He doesn’t hate her he hates himself for not loving her

JAJSHDFHFHDH in the feels and not even knowing what this is about and please do not shut up

hhhhh it’s from 35MM and all of the songs in that are separate stories and connected thematically and this one is a guy talking about falling out of love with his girlfriend and it’s just
alskdhfhsjlfkjfhs

and the whole time he’s complaining about her and how she pisses him off and he keeps saying he’s gonna leave her
but he keeps hesitating

and then he says “I used to plan us out, used to have no doubt / We’d be married and happy for life / You were gonna be my wife” and the song turns from being angry to mourning their relationship and then it gets angry again except now it’s directed at himself

I fear this song was in fact a significant percentage of why I realized I’m on the aromantic spectrum
It’s absolutely devastating XDD

ALSO
THE GIRL SINGS BACKUP VOCALS
And when he says “we should be perfect” she sings “I just want to be perfect”
Kills me every time