man the brain is bad tonight

no one particular thing just the weight of like everything in the last couple of months

combined with this overwhelming feeling that nothing gets better I just gotta keep dealing with whatever

I'm stressed about phd applications and monsters health and getting out of the country and just like so many things

and I'm tired but I can't fall asleep and I'm on the verge of getting my period

I keep having this dream where Sara sends me a random text that's like "nevermind I don't want to do this anymore let's break up"

which is irrational and I have no reason to think this except that's exactly what happened in my last like 3+ year relationship so

brain full, someone empty it for me thanks

I just really need something to go really well you know

I am crossing all my fingers for you nerd

And will fight your brain