today despite the fact that I woke up at a decent hour and have several auditions in my inbox my laptop has decided it doesn't want to turn on, so I have taken it into the shop

AUGH?!

I also took the dog to the vet for an update on his shots only to find that he suddenly has a rather serious heart murmur??

so that's just. that's been what it's like today

Yosuke no!! I'm sorry, that's so scary

fortunately I have another computer I use for auditions but I'm just. ugh. why

can't do any work on school assignments or job applications cuz all that is on the broken laptop

ahhhhhhhh

diabolicalmoe: it's awful and I hate it cuz they need to do an echocardiogram which will cost $$$ to even pinpoint what's wrong

but the fact that he's never been flagged for a heart murmur before is just. making me miserable about it

Toby also had a sudden heart murmur he developed at his last vet visit . . . it's scary

yeah Yousuke's is like. stage 4? I think? out of 6

augh jeez no

Hopefully smooth resolutions;;

so him going just straight from 0 to 4 is sending me to space

AUGH

please be o-suke, yosuke

Ugh manifesting positive energy

GET IT TOGETHER OLD MAN!!!

his resting breathing rate at least doesn't seem elevated which is a good sign but I'm still. just. uugh

I just wanted to get an old man his kennel cough vaccine before I board him for the holidays!!

oh no yosuke D: I'm so sorry tk

oh no 8( Yousuke!

Oh noooo

okay yeah I've checked and his resting breathing rate is 18 which is very normal so like. hopefully this is not a serious heart issue?? idk

oh also just got a rejection from the comic shop I'd applied to for part time work

yay.........

sigh. I hate it.

I also have not heard back from WotC from the job posting that's literally the job I used to do so I followed up with my coworker but honestly my hopes are zero

I made myself some hot cocoa

Ughhhh

Smokey had a heart murmur for like 4 years and it never once gave him a single bit of trouble, his eventual decline had nothing to do with it <3 I HOPE IT'S THE SAME FOR THE BAGEL BOY

fingers crossed!! the fact that his breathing rate seems normal does make me feel a bit better about it but I probably will still shell out for the echo cuz I gotta know