but I know inside I’m getting more & more lazy.. this is no good.. I know this, but I just don’t have the ‘energy’ to work more and harder..

.. the weight that’s on my shoulder are getting too heavy.. too tired to lift it up with the power I’m having at the moment..

maybe I meant to me act lazy for a bit.. at least to catch up my breath a little before I continue my journey..

but it still sounds like I’m using this as an excuse.. what should I do.. my mind thinks one thing, my heart feels another thing..

oh.. well.. oh well.. easy.. easy.. have to get through the doctor appointment on Monday before I put my mind into this issue..

Monday.. it’s another headache battle.. why doctor appointment need to be consider as a battle!? This is not right..

but that’s what I’m feeling and how I’m feeling.. something is not right here.. is it me .. or something else.. !? !? !?