what happened?

I have been trying to get a job because I am really broke and my boyfriend has been paying for me. Well I had this interview on Monday and-

it was like the perfect job for me because I have health issues. They sounded interested but then changed their minds. I really thought-

I had a chance. Plus I am scared my boyfriend is gonna get tired of paying for me and give up on me.

;A; /HUGGLES

*pats* I can absolutely feel your pain.

I have two shitty jobs, REALLY shitty jobs. because I find nothing that is going with what I want to do. And if he gives up on you even

I am just a mess right now cause I feel like I can't get a break. I got a job last October and within a week got the flu and then swine flu.

though you're trying... then it's not nice.

So I lost that.

Daamn.

DAMN

that shouldn't have happened though.

I missed too many days

still, you were sick, you couldn't control that

AllI want is a job that can help me pay off my bills and my boyfriend will be proud of me.

yeah.

but I am sure that you will find one.

if not this year, then there will be one next year.

And if I am forced to move back home there is nothing there for me but fights with my grandparents and loneliness.

You will find something. if not, then... I don't know, sell some stuff. ^^;;

uhuh.

I do sell avon but that's kinda effed me up too

And I'm not making enough to take care of myself

Ontop of that, part of those bills are the doctor bills from the damn swine flu

Sorry, none of this making any sense.

it does

it does.

just that you need to calm down

*nods* and stop despairing, it will work itself out

talk to your bf about your fears, too.

He knows them and he says I need to keep trying.

;A; /gives love to your bf

*nods* then do that. don't despair over this, look forward to the future and tell yourself that you will find something new.

The thing is he isn't sure if he loves me anymore. He said he cant love someone who is dependent on, he need to see I am independent.

..... It's not your fault that you are stuck in this situation!

...

I know

and my health is shitty, I am on so late cause I have horrible insomnia and on top of that very extreme IBS.

IBS?

I think that this is all depending on each other, actually

Irritable Bowel Syndrome

What do you mean?

ah, I know what you're talking about.

the insomnia and IBS comes from being under such stress of not finding a job.

Could be partially although I have had both issues since college

*nods* yeah, I'm just saying. And I mean that you should just breathe and tell yourself that it'll get better one day.

But I am on limted time I am on my last loan defferment for unemployeement where by December they will expect me to pay and the

I still owe bills to the hospital.

I'm effed up.

still. Calm down. Panicking will get you nowhere.

Ahhhhhhh i see!

/is already panicking when it comes down to art and look what she got, a C

Yeah my life just sucks

hey dont say that

you are still young

effing young

I am 24

24 is still young.

it IS

my parents are 50 sth

so don't say your life sucks not yet.

you can say your life sucks at certain age but not THIS

lol you don't know the half of it, I was wth a guy for 2 years, got engaged then broke up. We tried to stay friends and he tried to-

Still, life experiences make you more attractive.

well, not attractive.

hm.

molest me in my sleep. Tried to go back to college and me this nice guy who I knew liked me but never wanted admit it, wated 2 years on

more aware of the life more.

him meanwhile my health began to fail me , ending up failing out of college and was forced to move back home. I just happened to meet

my boyfriend before I left and we did long distance for 6 months. During that time i spent it fighting with my grandparents daily.

actually to be honest, you are sort of better of being single. Men are sometimes trouble. /ironic, WE ARE rping male characters!

/is trying to have a cheer up charm for you but fails too hard

I moved in with my boyfriend to escape my controlling family.

it's okay

so you can see, this is just another disaster in my crappy lif

life

Just look forward for future.

trying...

/patspatsandhuggles

yep. what denny said

Use my fail example of raising my "kids" in viking days.

8D /derpy

it's just for 24 years i've been through enough hell

anyways, you feel better talking here/

?

yeah

it helps

^^

brb though, I should shower

good call. Sing in the shower!

it does help sometimes.

heh or cry

CRYYYYYYYYY! I"M CRYING UNDER THE RAIN!

AND I LOVE THE RAIN TO HIDE MY TEAAAARS.