((mental)) is staring out the window a bit unsettled in the commons.
((anyone, possibly Ludwig, Felic suggested planning out WW3))
Germany
is
grateful that he was let out of his room earlier on his last day of punishment, finally able to be sitting out in the common room again to
observe the others.
*he sighed. He was tired of being here and without his computer he felt so restless. He wanted to be free and independent again.*
spots somebody with a... good look in his eye and even though he looks quite weak, there's something about him tht makes Ludwig sit down
next to him.
[[watch watch watch this is much better than any horror]]
*he turned from the window when he sensed someone next to him. He was surprised to see a very tall blonde next to him.* "Um..konichiwa?"
"Guten Tag," Ludwig says curtly, but with a smiles
smile*
(( can't type today, sorry. OTL ))
*gave him a very weak and shy smile*
offers his hand to be shaken. "My name is Ludwig, what is yours?"
*blinks at the hand confused and stands, bowing to him* "I am known as Kiku."
"Kiku," he repeats, a little baffled, but he stands up as well and copies that bow. "Nice to meet you."
*nods shyly* "Hai...you as well."
"Say... er, why are you here? You don't look like you belong here."
*looks at him a bit* "Neither do you."
Germany
is
startled for a moment, but then shows him a proud smile. "Then we have at least one thing in common."
"Hai...the physicians claim I am violent and merciless when I become angered..."
raises one brows. "Really? Do they?"
*nods* I...I...hurt a nurse here..They have now gave me medication...I am not sure if it works.."
"Why did you hurt her in the first place?"
*blinks* "I..I do not know...I do not remember doing the act but I awoke to...us nude and she was distraught.."
raises an eyebrow. "So... you do not know when you do something? Hm... That's a bit different to me."
*nods quietly* "How? What do you do?"
"I... I know what I do and I also know the consequences of that," he says, slightly conspirationally. "It's just that most people do not
agree that what I want to do is to make the world a better place by erasing all evil."
*froze a bit as he listened* "H..How do you erase evil?"
"You... eliminate it. For the better of all good," he says before he elaborates. "You simply focus on the good parts... and support them.
Ignore everything else. ))
"T..That does not seem bad..why would that cause you to be here?"
takes a deep breath. "It seems like... everybody around me doesn't think that evil should be eliminated, but accepted and be lived with."
"I..I do not believe that. I beleive it is important to live a honorable and good life, free from despicable acts."
nods, thinking he has found the right man. "Yes, that's what I think too!"
*smiles at him shyly* "That is good...I do not think many see the world as we do."
((oh this gonna get to, one man who will stop at nothing to get his ideals across and the other cannot remember what violent acts he -
Kiku
has
done))
(( yep, good combination. he can use him without Japan having a bad conscience. ^^; ))
shakes his head. "No. They want everybody to be equal, no matter how rotten they are inside."2
"M..may I ask if you have attempted to dispel evil here?"
"I... not directly. Though I tried to help... Denny, if you know him, to control his... madness," he explains.
(( meep ))
*shakes his head* "You are the only patient I have met, they only recently allowed me here."
nods. "I've been confined to my room just the last week as well, I know how you feel," he says.
*nods* "May I ask why you were?"
"I was caught red-handed with some chemicals," he admits. By now, the whole hospital should be knowing this.
*blinks surprised* "Were you using them to dispel evil?
"Not yet... I was trying to put them together to create something to dispel evil, but I was missing at least one ingredient every time I
thought I had a recipe," he said, corner of his mouth twitching a little. "Instead I told everyone I was making soap."
"Ah...what would have it done if you had succeeded? "
"...it would have erased all that were impure," he explains, whispering so that nobody else heard him now.
*gasps and looked at him frightened*
Germany
gives
him a conspiratorial look. "I wouldn't have used it yet, I need to find allies before I can go on."
*nods and thinks for a moment* "W..would dispelling evil provide freedom from those who have taken it away?"
"you mean, if you dispel evil you will become free again?"
*pauses at the fact he figured it out* "Hai...I wish to have my independence and freedom again."
"...that is one way to do it, yes," he admits, but it has not much to do with his plan. "But you can also... /use/ that other side of yours
to become more powerful. That way, if you can control it, you will never have to face being locked up like this again."
*blinks* "U..use my other side...you mean allow my self to do those things they claim I do?"
nods. "Yes. But under /your/control," he explains. "You are afraid of that side, that will get you no where. You have to... become one with
that side of yours and control it. If you want it, nobody else will be the master of the things you do."
(( /feels like a sith ))
((what is your bidding my master? lol))
"H..How do I control it? I do not remember what I do."
(( XDDD ))
"Do you remember the times when the control is slipping from your hands?"
*shakes his head* "The last time..with that nurse...the last thing I remember is her ifnoring me...then nothing and I awake on top of her-
...nude"
ignoring
"...so you don't like being ignored, huh?"
mentally works through the facts that he was just told, a picture forming in his head.
(( Pfft, how to be a doctor when being a patient. *facepalms* ))
"N..not very...it makes me feel unimportant and unsignifcant."
nods. "And you try to make yourself known by turning... to your other side... right? Unconsciously, of course"
"I...I can only assume that is possibly so."
sighs. "I ask you to pay more attention to yourself then and what is... the 'trigger' for your 'other' side."
"I..I can feel...it happening some. I get fustrated."
nods slowly. "Well... erm, try to keep control over your actions should it happen again. Redirect them into hitting something else maybe."
"B..But I think I ..um change before I can.."
"That is where you have to take control! You are a strong person, aren't you?"
*frowns at him* "Hai..I am. Very much so."
"Then you can win the hardest fight in your life: against yourself."
*thought for a moment* "Perhaps I can."
shakes his head. "That's wrong. Not 'perhaps"
, but you /can/."
do it."
(( asanfdlaas. My clue to go to bed. sorry. ^^;; ))
"I..I can.."
((night))
Germany
gives
him a stern look, that says he believes in you, but will be terribly disappointed if you do not trust yourself.
"I..if I can, what can we do to leave here?"
"You can show them that you have control over yourself and leave this place with all privileges. And then... then you can help me to turn
the world into a better place, ruled by us who are at peace with ourselves."
"O..Okay..I am willing to help you."
nods, satisfied with himself and the world now. "Good. Then do your best to get out of here... Just like I do."
"W..what do you need to do..to leave?"
nods. "Just make the doctors believe that you are healed. It's not an easy task and takes a lot of self-sacrifice, but it's manageable."
Why do they believe you need to be here?"
"Me? Oh, delusions."
"Ah, how do you show them there are none."
"I think what I would do if I had delusions and have them cure me of it. Means a lot of compromising. In your case though, I suggest you try
to "let out" that other side of yours when you are yourself... But you really have to find your own tactics."
"Let my um...Black side out. They refer to it as that here..."
nods. "Your black side. Become one with it and don't let it control you. You're the one in charge, right?"
"Hai...but I do not wish to have that part of me. *takes a breath* "I do not want to think that...I am that person who hurts others."
"Then you will always have that Black side of yours and it will come to the surface whenever it's the most inconvenient for you."
*sighs*"I do not want that either.."
"There is no way to get rid of that side of yours. It will always be a part of you, whether you want it or not. The only thing that you CAN
do is to control it."
"C..can you help me do so?"
scratches his chin. "I told you everything that I know how to control that side... you have to find out the rest by yourself."
"Ah...I will control it...I do not wish to hurt another person."
nods. "Good luck."
"Contact me if you neeed holp."
"H..How?"
"You will fine me," he reassures.
*nods quietly, a bit scared of this new task* "I do..do wish to help you."
resists the urge to praise him like a dog and simply expresses his gratitude. "Thanks. You will not regret it."
"Is there anything we can do now?"
"...for now, we have to find oue way out of here. Avoid talking about this subject to the doctors or nurses. Time is our ally."
*nods* "They would not understand."
nods. "Not at all."
"Is getting healthy the only option of escape?"
nods. "The only one that will stop them from trying to control you afterwards."
"The only problem is I am at the mercy of another give my the chance to try to control it."
frowns a little. "As you said, it will happen when you get frustrated or something."
*nods*
"...I think it will happen within the next session with Doctor Braginski."
[[interesting to see how ludwig is treating Kiku...noumnoumnoum on pasta and read]]
*blinks* "I..I do not see him. I never have."
"Which doctor do you see?"
*frowns* "Um...Dr. Wang-san..." *a hint of detest in his voice*
"Oh, I see," he says, sensing that dislike. "Well. You don't like him, do you?"
"Not particularly...his eyes are condescending and he acts very self righteous."
"Then... Do you think that your 'black' side will come out with him? And then you will have a chance to control that side."
*nods* "I think it has before.."
((he hasn't been on so let's not depend on him))
nods.
(( Pfft, I doubt I'll get very far in this next week. ^^;; ))
((yeah thats the only thing with monthly themes, ya never get far in deep plots))
(( true. ))
"I wish I could remember some, it would make controlling it easier."
"Mhm..." he nods. "I'm sorry, I don't know an answer to that."
*nods* "I am afraid I may never be able to control it."
"...if you believe that, then you won't be able to control it; It all starts in your head."
*looks at him confused*
sighs. "you must believe that you are in control of all of your sides, then you can achieve that. If not... Well, you've already lost the
fight. Most wars - and games - are won inside your mind.
"I will try my best to do that."
nods.
"What do you need to improve on?"