I really screwed up this Xmas n made him heartbroken while he bought me REAL SK DIAMONDS. Idk where to begin. I'm happy. I'm sad. I regret.

I try to comfort myself, telling myself ive done my best. but inside I know I was goo distracted by other things to plan...

but it's too late now n I've hurt the person most impt to me..

I know he'll forgive me. but I won't forgive myself until I give him the his one year anni gift. that I have planned since sept.

come to think of it why did I plan for our anni in end Jan first rather than xmas??? -.-