It is only human for you to feel those.

add the insult to injury that is being a loveless person, and being busted lots of times..

It is up to you if you are going to get back on your feet. Help yourself, and heaven will help you. We, as your acquaintances/friends...

...can only help in terms of emotional support, but ultimately, it is you who must fight the way back up.

...........

are you still in good terms with each other?

yeah....

then there should be no worries.