why?

cuz i'm in a downward spiral and hard to shake alone sometimes.

why smack and not !?

well, that might work but felt i needed a smack cuz i'm being dumb so smack seemed more deserved.

downward spiral though?

how is that being dumb?

so many people are having a hard time right now. the change in seasons and amount of light maybe?

suck ass economy doesn't help either

being completely alone for the 1st time in over 12 years doesn't help either.

it takes some adjusting. twelve years is a long time.

it won't take TOOO long. i did bring this on myself after all. i could have him back if i wanted.