ganito kase

recently naging bestfriend ko, crush ko nung first three weeks back in june

may bf siya. pero away bati sila. as in under siya nung bf niya. lage siya umiiyak

eh recently, nung Christmas actually, narealize ko gano siya ka importante sakin

since june close kame, dame ngang nag aakalang kame

tapos eto, nadevelop ako sa kanya ng sobra nung Christmas break

and araw araw magkasama na kame from morning til uwian

ako close friend niya, siya first bestfriend ko talaga

eh madalas kame nagbabanatan. kaya ewan ko kung alam nun na gusto ko talaga siya o joke parin

eh diba aalis ako soon. so di ko alam ano gagawin ko. iiwasan ko ba siya para malayo ako sa kanya, para di kame masaktan dalawa

..or pagpipilitan ko maging kaclose siya, to the point na may part sa kanya na hihintayin bumalik ako, kase pinangako ko sa sarili kong..

...babalikan ko siya

what should I do? -_- ayan yung tanong ko talaga kanina, sakto nalaman ko, nakipag break ata bf niya sa kanya ngayon lang

You'll never know what distance and time can do, Gian.

nasa ust siya ngayon umiiyak mag isa. tapos di ko siya masamahan pa, paalis na dapat ako, bigla ako sinigawan ng nanay ko

I know, pero tanggap ko na na aalis ako, since I know may tao akong babalikan. Iba dating niya sakin talaga eh

First off, she's important to you, as in really important. But don't you think it will be unfair for her kung magiging close kayo and you'll

leave>

?

yung tipong, malakas dating niya sakin, pero at the same time, pag magkasama kame para kameng bestfriends lang talaga kung amg usap

I think it's better to keep your friendship in the best friendly way than to move on to a deeper level that will leave both of you with

broken hearts.

kaya nga eh, eh pano kung lumayo ako, tapos sa oras ng alis ko, wala na siya

As they say, "kung kayo, kayo talaga."

kase honestly, kahit nung di kame ganun kaclose pa, alam niya na aalis ako, nagdadrama siya sakin

Malay mo pagbalik mo, wala na nga siya, pero dumating naman yung para sayo talaga.

and last wednesday, nag morning break kameng dalawa, tapos nag usap kame konti, nagulat ako nakita ko tumulo luha niya, tapos sobra sakit

You should fix your relationship now pa lang.

I understand, but, as of now, siya kase talaga gusto ko. Maybe it's selfish, but you should understand.

I understand.

I'm not planning on pushing any further than close friends/bestfriends, what I just want was to be important enough to her

It happened to me last time.

You could ask her.

--enough that she won't just forget me easily.

You still have more time to spend with each other.

Then do something that will get her reminded of you.

Like I said, siya ang first bestfriend ko, she knows 3/4 of my life, and all the friends I've got since I was little, not even 1/4

That's it, ngayon she's alone in ust, she contacted me asking me to go to her right now, but then the timing is a bitch.

Aww. Yknow what, I feel sad about your case.

I just got home and my mom yelled at me when I told her I'll go out again.

It's hard really.....

yeah. :| di ko na alam gagawin ko talaga

Maybe try to talk with your mom calmly?

Malay mo she'll change her mind..

eh I've talked to her many times na pag nag aaway sila, wala siya pinakikinggan, minsan di pa umuuwi, what more ngayong break na

I asked her nicely actually, she just said it's already late. -_-

Omggg. She needs a serious comfort.

Ay. How about escape? Jk. Im a bad influence

Yeah. I told her to just go home, and I'll give my whole day to her tomorrow, I'll be with her in whatever she wants to do.

And she just said she doesn't want to go home, and she won't go to school tomorrow. -_-

Haha, I was thinkin' bout that, but then there would be bigger risks

Why wouldn't she? Omg, that again is hard.

I'm not really asking much from her, I'm okay with being just friends. I just can't bear the thought of leaving her in this condition

Just make her feel that life is worth more than what she thought

She's like that when she's really sad. I know it's stupid cuz we're just friends, but it really kills me to think of her being like that

Yeah, I'd give anything to see her smile and be happy. But, the world doesn't give me a chance to do so.

I knooow. I understand that kind of feeling.

I dont know what to say either.

Presence is really a big help.

It's alright. Thanks for listening, err reading, anyway. Calms me down a bit.

I just wish, she'd let me.

That's just my use anyway. To let you vent so you'll feel better.

Time heals

Malay mo if she's better, she'll let you.

Hehe, thanks a million. I hope she'll get better soon.

I hope, don't take this the wrong way, that she won't get back with her bf/ex ever.

Basta if I were you, fix everything now and enjoy your weeks left.

HAHAHAHA. I also wish!

I mean seriously, the dude is a total control freak douchebag. She changed her profile picture in fb without his permission,he got mad alrdy

and and, he always tell her if she won't change, he'll break up with her. I think they've broken up more than how many fingers I got

but still, she's totally madly inlove with him. What a waste, I'd give anything to be that guy.

Okay, thanks for everything, really. Honestly, and yeah I'm open about this, my tears wouldn't stop falling earlier

Man, go eat.

It helps to lessen the pain.

Try eating ice cream, it's a happy food.

I'll have to go na kasi.

Okay, sorry, thanks again.

Things will get better okay? PRAY

Goodnight, gianiii! :>

Okay, goodnight.

What's with that worried face :-?

Last thing, nasa maynila siya, at NIGHT, and ALONE. I'm worried as hell.

Nakuuu. Persuade her to go home!

She won't listen to me. Her close cousin even told her to do so, she still wouldn't listen. She's not in a good state of mind. -_-