she's just going to keep things status quo with NYC guy for now. She doesn't want to scare him off or move too fast for fear of losing him.
totally gets that but knows it is fucking hard - good luck!
she doesn't want to be all "OMG LOVE MEEEEE!!!"
he'll come to it in his own time, and that will make it even better in the future.
this sounds soooooo familiar.