;__________________________;

thank you

how are things with your surgery?

27th of june is my surgery :/ i'm scared. but right now i really wanna keep my head up. i'm going trough this on my own. and won't be shy to

say my thoughs. i just say what i think. about everything in life right now! becomming indepentdent

I think that's really good. You have been growing because of this, I think, I've been proud of what I've seen.

thank you <3 i learned a lot, and even though i'm still scared of it, i am not that scared of the operation, all i'm scared about is after

the operation, i have problems with showing my body, and my mom keeps saying the nurses are gonna have to shower me

that's where i have protest about. also now, at school, alone or not. having problems or not. i go for my grades.. the rest we'll see

if it's safe for you to try they will just wait outside the door, at least that's what happened to me when i was on bedrest

yeah, but they still gonna touch me, i don't even allow my mom to touch me, i'm boss of myself, point up

possibly at first, but what you might be able to do is ask to talk to your nurse about it and if there's any concessions that can be made

:/ but they don't see that i'm a 15 years old girl, super shy, and so not into shower her body. like really i would feel lesbian then

They do see that, though, they understand because they've been there too.

this is like so hard for me to just do it, like really i'd be crying my eyes out.

but i won't think about it now. just focusing on school and the rest is for later

That's a good idea.