okay, so

right now i am just generally struggling

with feelings of inadequacy right now

seeing as RL is interfering with my RP stuff

and even then I'm not getting RL stuff done as well as i should

so

i'm putting my RP friends through a lot of unnecessary waiting

and making my RL people pissed off with how distracted I am

because I am thinking of RP

and mostly

mostly i think of Lotti raping things, okay

all day

but then

i don't have time to write Lotti

and so

it just stays in my head

argh

So i just

am going to go stand over in this corner over here

and

think about shiny things

*pats* poor thing Sounds like you need a vacation