No, I'm not fine, I haven't been fine in *months* and I don't see the light at the end of the tunnel coming any soon.

And I'm actually becoming more and more bitter day after day.

But how am I supposed to say that, huh...

I meant it in a general sense since I've been getting it a lot, from different people

Same as Mindy here, but I

And thing is, when people ask that question, they usually expect an "I'm fine" as the reply. getting an "I'm not fine" is not...

am sorry if I annoyed you on LJ earlier this week

...what people want to hear.

Especially when they ask out of politeness and not because they're really concerned about whatever mess there's behind that reply.

And yes, I admit it would annoy me at first. But after getting it a lot, it doesn't annoy me, just...

I'm seriously wondering. What am I supposed to say? "Fine" is saying a blatant lie, but "not fine" is not exactly the best reply either.

People don't want downers around. But I'm afraid I have nothing else to offer at this point.

Yeah, but if you've been nothing but a downer for a while...

...adding something is likely to bring the "oh please shut up already" kind of feeling

Fair point.

Now then, my bad attitude and lack of ability to offer anything has already driven 99% of people away, so...I wonder if

it's worth to keep spitting all my negativity? I think it's a lost cause.

Anyways, back to the point...it doesn't make much sense to keep being a downer to others by answering truthfully.

Actually, I think that...if you can see you're being nothing but a negative mess,you should step back.No point on bringing that upon others.

Better said than done, of course. But I try to stick to that...