Uhm 8|a I am not sure. I am bad at reading how I come off in REAL life.
the one thing I know for SURE...
I talk more and even faster and about more things IRL 8D
and I think... I don't come across as much myself online? Because conversation is very interactive, and I am very verbal/auditory...
so I change the topic and tone of how I'm talking based on the person I'm talking to, instead of sticking with a "default", like I do online
I basically go into a conversation like it's a piece of art, and I want to shape it into the best it can be.
This makes me VERY bad at small talk, and when speaking with a group I can tend to favor the quickest speaker and quieter voices can get
run over e__e;. I've tried to get better at this, and not interrupting.
Real life does not have a "person is typing" signal.
I've changed a lot over the years. As a kid, I was very talkative. Then I got very introverted, because .... school was not a great social
experience. I was sort of out-of-touch in highschool, too. I gave my opinions way too freely and strongly because I didn't understand
that not everyone responds to cues the same way. I'd make a lot of people defensive, or just DISLIKE me.
So I can swing the opposite way, now, and be SO careful in what I say that I'm not really being myself.
I'm a lot more balanced, now. My mom says that I talk much more, since talking meds, in a healthy-socially interactive way.
I don't feel as nervous about making smalltalk.
But the thing that still defines me is the impassioned speeches, I think. XD I don't think I'll ever be as likable as I'd like.
But I still think I can be.... warmer? And more myself, in person. I am very touchy, too, although I don't initiate it. So internet
really bothers me, sometimes. It offers none of the resolution of comfort.
......... and I think I can be more convincing, in person. XD And that's most important when it comes to showing affection.
/looks at all this text. e_e Yes, I really do talk more in person. So much more.
The one thing that is the same in both is that I'll share very personal information-- sometimes with people I've just met.
There isn't really a line in what I'll tell certain people, it's how it fits in the conversation.
....I mean, I discussed my thoughts on sexuality when this guy asked me out, in a very frank manner.
But if there's not limit on TOPIC or facts, even personal facts....because I WANT people to know me, in a complete way as soon as possible
....still I HAVE learned I am a lot more careful about two things--
two) "Spiritual" things of a not theoretical or theological nature. So, anything personal or esp. emotional about that part of my life.
because I am actually a really emotional person |D ....but feel uncomfortable about people knowing this.
a lot of things make me cry-- like, tears of Great Passion. I can get really worked up.
I make myself cry having imaginary conversations. 8|
/NOT A SECRET. But awkward to explain.
haha, going into a conversation as if it's a piece of art to shape - best description ever
and as far as running over quieter voices, as long as they have little sign posts reading "come back to my point" then you usually come back
....thank you quiet voice XDDD