You know that none of those things would matter to me, right?

Because sometimes you do not know what you ought to know and that conversation was just not a nice one.

I know.

But I also know that you are right, it wasn't very nice and so this means a lot.

Thank you.

There is no need to thank me for what I ought to be saying anyway.

Besides.

Really.

The way you thank me is by still being with me at each new day.

And that is all I could ever ask for or want.

Because of thinking these things you are a gift to me as well.

But I just wonder why that wasn't enough for Papa.

Shouldn't it have been?

I don't know how or even if I can answer that.

I wish I could. (Though at the same time, I am happy I cannot, I do not want to bend to his way of thinking)

I've asked him before.

He never has an answer, so at least he knows how to feel guilt.