kid
feels
>>locked to: soul (and black*star, added after the fact at 2:33 am)
kid
says
I have a question but it's a hard one.
its ok
as long as its not something like define pi times a thousand i can do it
kid
says
Haha.
whats up
you cool?
kid
says
I don't rightly know.
do i need to be worrying
i mean i will anyway but
s oul
is
it justified worrying
kid
says
I don't really know that as well.
that means itis
kid
says
I don't feel competant.
kid
says
Competent
in what
kid
says
I do not think I can separete that.
but you still asking about some part of it?
kid
says
I guess.
kid
says
I don't know.
sometimes it helps not to try to seperate it
but just to try to say w/e
kid
says
It's fine.
kid
says
Now.
kid
says
I think.
really
kid
says
no
s oul
has
it been?
kid
says
Probably not.
don't use most my coping mechanisms
they dont work
kid
says
Suppose so.
you know they dont
kid
says
Really, you don't need to worry about it. I do know.
logically yeah
kid
says
Logic is everything.
s oul
is
it
kid
says
No.
yeah
its really not
you got your phone
kid
says
Of course.
kid
says
I don't know that's necessary.
yah tell me something that proves its not
kid
says
Because it doesn't work anyway and it's fine.
what doesnt
kid
says
Because I've been through this before and it doesn't work.
kid
says
Nothing will happen because none of it works.
yeah eventually maybe you'll find something that does
i mean you say 'this before' so what you mean the feelings or the act
kid
says
I guess.
guess what
kid
says
There's nothing else to do.
ask people for help
thats what
kid
says
No, that cannot really be afforded.
why in the hell wouldnt it be
kid
says
Because if it doesn't work anyway, other issues are more pertinent.
completely not true
dont think it is
its not zero-sum or w/e the hell the term is
theres not only so much care to go around
kid
says
Well, I know that.
kid
says
But attention and resources.
but you feeling worse
doing the wrong things about it
kid
says
I suppose.
no you dont
kid
says
Heh, sorry.
no
anywya i get it
i was like well lets remove me from all this it takes the situation so people can think more about better stuff
doesnt work that wa
y
just gets worse
what is your thinking to get to that solution
kid
says
What do you mean?
what is making you think that is a great idea right now
kid
says
I hardly think it's a good idea.
so whatre you punishing yourself for then
kid
says
Hrn.
kid
says
Not that much.
i cant help you if you lie
dont do that to me
kid
says
I neither put together signs well enough nor thought it through enough so that Brew would have been solved before now.
ok what about maka
kid
says
She did fine. Does okay.
so why is she fine but you dont feel like you are
kid
says
I have no idea.
kid
says
That actually is not a lie.
kid
says
I have no fucking clue.
yeah
kid
says
Honestly if I can deal with it fine to get through what does not actually work, then why worry anyone else, why put the stress on.
ok how many times this come about
kid
says
Uhh.
whens the last time this happen
and do not skip it if it happened anytime this year
not lying does not mean you have to full disclosure but it means you gotta try
kid
says
I suppose September.
alright
before that?
kid
says
August
before that
kid
says
I don't know.
april?
kid
says
I guess.
Before that?
kid
says
september
kid
says
No, december. then septemer.
so thats three months four months three months one month one month
whys it getting closer together
kid
says
Who knows.
s oul
is
that numbers of
wanting to or trying to
kid
says
Do you really want that answer?
yeah
im not gonna do any dumb or useless questions right now
kid
says
Ahh.
kid
says
thanks
well thank you for talking to me instead of doing something else
stick with me here
kid
says
I'm trying my best.
kid
says
It's trying.
kid
says
The 'wanting to' is far more frequent.
so is today 'wanting' and 'could' or 'already did'
and yeah i do need ananswer to that
kid
says
Could I say 'all of the above'?
yeah
but tell me if my impression is wrong
that usually if you try it resolves it
kid
says
That's not wrong.
but it hasnt now
kid
says
I suppose not.
why not
kid
says
I don't know that either.
can you see trying again making you feel better at all
because
if it doesnt what do you do then
kid
says
I don't know.
kid
says
It's never been like this before.
if i was saying this
what would you tell me to do
kid
says
Get the fuck to somewhere that can help immediately?
yeah
can you think of a good argument not to do that
one that you wouldnt tell someone else not to say
kid
says
Yes.
dont cite maka
you know how supertired she is of people compensating
kid
says
Yes, well, even with that, she may be very angry that she has never heard of these things.
well she didnt know about it for me either
she's not going to kick you out for something
she is going to marry you and she never wanted to do that with anyone
if she gets mad she gets mad but itll work out
you know how she works
if she promises something she holds it up before she even does it
kid
says
yeah
and right now where is your head on this
kid
says
It's not that much better.
ok you know what im gonna say right
kid
says
Yes.
kid
says
This will sound stupid to ask.
never a stupid question
kid
says
well blackstar just messaged me and I really do not want to go over all of this again.
kid
says
Would it be alright to put him on this filter because that is just a lot easier and a lot more efficient.
yeah
no reason it wouldnt be
ɹɐʇs ✯
says
finding out someone thinking shit like that
ɹɐʇs ✯
says
do you really think she'd be better finding out if you actually made something work
ɹɐʇs ✯
says
or before while youre still around
kid
says
But that's useless to think about since it never will.
ɹɐʇs ✯
says
yeah i know that you know thats not true
ɹɐʇs ✯
says
you wouldnt be doing it if you didnt
ɹɐʇs ✯
says
i'm going to tell you what you're going to be doing
ɹɐʇs ✯
says
if you dont do it and cant convince me you shouldnt then i'll get you safe myself
ɹɐʇs ✯
says
either way its gonna happen
kid
says
Alright?
ɹɐʇs ✯
says
whatd you do today and when
kid
says
Uhh.
ɹɐʇs ✯
says
like soul im not gonna ask any stupid or useless questions
ɹɐʇs ✯
says
trust me that anything i ask theres a good reason
he knows wtf to do so just
listen, okay