i guess...

maybe i see what black*star means about birthdays, now

i know it is years birthday on sunday

i do know that

but it does not feel very relevant...

well i know he says he wants his to be counted august 3 not may 3

because aug 3 is when he went to shibusen and thats more relevant for him

i guess mine's kinda like that

i guess oct 30 is crona who tried for miss medusa ruined everything for her

but aug 8 is crona who decided to know better and thats who i am

but i guess its not completely like him

i dont wanna say no ditch it its not relevant

it is

its very relevant

even if i am not that crona anymore i exist because she did so

but it is an outsider feeling...

i just

dont want to have to spend a day like that...

i just want to hide sleep through it

can i skip over it

can i?

please??

no

i guess i gotta deal with that too

theres no healthy way to sleep through it not even with magic

oh why cant that ever benefit me

i skipped it last year...

what did that take

more things nobody know anything about

not even maka or my boys...

its not even that it cant measure up to some of the things i have told now...

its that not saying it says a lot for it i dont want to say because they're not true

so just nobody knows

i wish i didnt either

and yes i know that is probably a lie

that not saying it is makes it bad to say

after kid couple weeks ago yes i know that's very wrong

i jsut dont think

i know theres too much to deal with already i can wait till there's less

why worry people over something they think is nice

yes ok no more whining the end

(oh i wish that could be true)