I MEAN

I COULD UNDERSTAND SOME APPREHENSION

BUT AT THIS POINT BEING A BITCH HAS ABSOLUTELY LITTLE WORTH

Alright, you want to pretend we are doing this?

Fine, we will pretend.

YOU REALIZE THAT BY PRETENDING WITH THIS SORT OF THING, IT JUST HAPPENS ANYWAY.

Not really. I am pretending that anything you say could impact my actions or decisions.

GEE, THAT'S SUPER KIND OF YOU

Well, I certainly try.

GOD, YOU ARE SUCH A BITCH.

I MEAN, YOU ARE JUDGING SOMETHING WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING ANYTHING ABOUT IT.

AND YOU KNOW NOTHING BECAUSE YOU REFUSE TO.

THEREFORE WHICH PART NEEDS TO BE JUDGED? YOUR BEHAVIOR.

I'M ASSUMING THIS FIT HAS TO DO WITH MY EXISTENCE IN THE EQUATION. THAT WOULD PROBABLY BE MY REASON, TOO.

BUT IT'S SOMETHING YOU NEED TO GET OVER.

No, it's not about you.

It is about Dave's involvement in the situation.

WAIT

WHAT?

I have no idea what he told you. But he does not always know himself that well.

There is no way he could pigeonhold himself into any particular quadrant and if he is trying, then it will eventually fail.

OH

HAHA

WHAT, REALLY?

OKAY THIS IS WHY YOU ASK PEOPLE THINGS BEFORE JUDGING SOMETHING

Well, I cannot imagine it the other way around, either...

AND AGAIN

THIS IS WY IT'S A GREAT IDEA TO ASK QUESTIONS FIRST

I MEAN

USUALLY NEITHER OF US CARE ABOUT COMPROMISING. AS WE BOTH CARE ABOUT IT HERE, WE FIGURED THAT IT WAS WORTH A SHOT.

SO THAT'S WHAT WE DO. WE COMPROMISE.

And that... works?

KINDA

I THINK

MAYBE

WELL OKAY IT'S PRETTY MUCH JUST THAT SORT OF THING TAKES AWHILE.

BUT IT'S WORTH A DAMN TRY.

I WON'T LIE TO YOU. BECAUSE YOU GIVING THE TIME TO LISTEN MEANS YOU DESERVE TRUTH.

I AM SO FUCKING IRRATIONAL RIGHT NOW IT MAKES ME WANT TO SLAP MYSELF

I MEAN, JESUS CHRIST

I'M AGREEING TO ALL SORTS OF SHIT I NEVER WOULD HAVE BEFORE AND I AM COMPLETELY FUCKED WITH ALL THESE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS

GOD, FUCK THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS

BUT I MEAN, IT'S NOT LIKE I'M NOT CAPABLE OF BEING SENSIBLE WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO IT

I MEAN WITHOUT SENSIBILITY I WOULD THROW OUT ALL THE FUCKING QUADRANTS IF HE ASKED ME TO

BUT I KNOW THAT WOULD BE EMOTIONAL SUICIDE

SO I'M NOT. IT WOULDN'T BENEFIT EITHER OF US. NOT EVEN FOR FIVE SECONDS.

IF IT'S WORTH A TRY IT'S WORTH A PROPER TRY

SO YEAH. LOOK AT ALL THAT SHIT YOU DIDN'T KNOW. ANY OF IT FIX YOUR ATTITUDE?

BECAUSE I CAN SAY MORE TO FIX IT. BUT I JUST NEED TO KNOW.

I'VE SURE GOT A HELL OF A LOT IN HERE, THOUGH.

COME AT ME BRO. SHOW ME YOU'RE WILLING TO TRY FOR HIM WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO IT. THAT'S WHAT FAMILY DOES, ISN'T IT?

...okay, more than just the complexion of you using that slang, I have never really seen you get even close to saying those sort of things

...per. perplexion.

YEAH, WELL

I GUESS IT'S SOME SORT OF REVERSE PSYCHOLOGY I COULD DO WITHOUT

RESPECTING SOMEONE'S THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS AS THEY RESPECT YOURS MAKES YOU ACTUALLY FEEL WORTH SOMETHING.

WOW.

WHAT THE HELL.

I NEVER EVEN PROCESSED THAT BEFORE THAT CHANGES EVERYTHING FUUUCK

You mean if you do not hate yourself?

YEAH.

That may be something you need to get used to. Especially if you insist on engaging with humans this far.

NO YOU DONT GET IT

NEVER MIND

YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO TELL ME THE SHIT YOU WANT ME TO GO ON ABOUT

THAT'S NOT INCLUDED SO DON'T EVEN TRY IT

I am actually not at all sure about what to ask. Which makes me feel terrible about my previous actions, if they are so easily proved wrong.

ITS OKAY

DONT SWEAT IT

I DON'T EVEN CARE WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT ME, TO BE HONEST

I JUST WANT YOU TO STOP SCREWING AROUND WITH HIS EMOTIONS

WE JUST GOT JADE TO STOP FUCKING DOING THAT WE DON'T NEED YOU RIGHT AFTER, OKAY.

This is clearly a conversation we will need to continue.

However, it will need to be at a later as I believe I have something to fix.

You may doubt the sincerity of this, considering the general tone of our interactions, but thank you.

UM

YOU KNOW I ACTUALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY TO THAT

WOW. UM.

'Thank you' or 'it is alright' tends to suffice.

OKAY, YEAH, THOSE.

THANKS AND ITS ALRIGHT. YEAH. THAT SOUNDS GOOD.